Underneath my Skin

Back to old school. :)

2011-03-04T02:48:00.001-08:00

Okay, fuck em' emo posts. Imma happy boi now! :D

To be honest, I was trying to find a solo picture of me smiling big, but I was too lazy instead I camwhored with my webcam, and guess what, I found back my camwhoring mojo! Yeahhh!! -,- pfft. I had to excuse myself away from my room mate cause' I was syoksendiri-ing so excessively and he was giving me this weird look, whatever.

Anyway, wooshh, its been a while since my last normal, un-emo post. As most of you know, I recently went on vacation to UK, YES FREAKING UK!! ARGGGHHH!! :D

Let me tell you, that place is SOOO AMAZING! I mean, you watch in movies how the British accent sound like, and how the Brits act and eat and everything in between, guess what, its all the same!! I mean the Brits are NOT snobbish at all, they are so friendly, they are so nice, they are so helpful, they are so AWESOME!

So, from London, to Birmingham, to Stafford, to Manchester, to Sheffield, back to London, to Exeter, back to London, flew to Berlin, and back to Moscow. In total, it was around 17 days, 17 days of pure heaven, haaaaaaaaa.. *Angel's symphony*

Throughout my journey, I used a DSLR to shoot most of my pictures, and my laptop cannot recognize all of em'. I am still waiting for my picture converter which is with my friend. -,-

Anyway, there are still some piccas that I used my normal camera to shoot.

# if you don't know any of the above, please go and bang the wall with your head tqvm.

My normal camera was mostly used for vlogging purposes and I didn't really much attention of using it to take piccas, but at least you get to see something right? :) I will get the converter one day, *crosses heart*.

Peace out. :)

From Moscow,

-stillatstake-

If

2011-02-17T12:13:00.001-08:00

If only I could tell you,

how attractive your smile is.

If only I could tell you,

how much I crave to be with you everyday.

If only I could tell you,

how much I miss you.

If only I could tell you,

how much, I love you.

If only..

I miss you

2011-02-08T15:57:00.000-08:00

Its like walking through a busy street, at the wee hours in the morning, but all I see, is your face.

Everywhere I go, I look at the ground, I look at the sky, I look at the skyscrapers, I only see you

Its like, I pretend for you to be beside me, walking with me, talking to me, laughing with me.

Your smile has been locked in my head, its like a virus that keeps on infecting me, and the only antibiotic, is you

Its like, every time I think of you, my smile fades away, my eyes gazes to the far, my speech deactivates, my heart stops pumping for a second, my whole world turns silence, and I take a deep, deep breath, knowing that you're the only one that can bring light to me at that very moment

Its like, I keep on thinking about you, all the time, knowing that maybe, you don't even remember me, and whats the point of me wasting my time missing a person that does not even care about me, kills right to the core of my heart

Its like, every time you come into my mind, I feel some parts of me are missing

then only to realize, its my heart, because you stole it away from me.. the very first time, when you took my breath away..

I miss you.

Too much.

whatever

2010-12-07T14:32:00.000-08:00

i know its been awhile since i updated my blog.

but im getting kinda lazy updating it, there was one time that i was actually in the mood of blogging, and i actually typed out quite a long text, and then i deleted it. its like everything lost at that moment and i just, don't feel like blogging anymore.. at that moment.

but, i am still gonna keep my blog just in case i might, might, need it one day.. where that one particular day arrives, and there's no one there for me to rely on, lean on, trust on..

and when my world do come down on me..

thats the day, where i turn to you again, for comfort, for shelter..

a place for my soul.

from Moscow,

-stillatstake-

regarding about the previous post,

where i ask y'll to stay tuned for the next 'exciting' post,

its not gonna happen,

just go on my facebook and check out the pictures.

thats it, goodbye for now.

maybe one day, my blogging mojo will return, who knows?

Summer Holiday Trilogy. [Tre] - part 1

2010-10-03T12:06:00.000-07:00

i've said before that i will save the best for last, remember? alright its gonna be looooooooong, so here it comes..

in 2 months of my summer holiday, i have done so many things that i would never even imagine that i would possibly do, and at the very end of the my summer holiday, i did something that means the whole world to me. I participated in a voluntary work involving medical students studying in Moscow, to go on Missions to help poor, unfortunate people around South East Asia, and Russia. and its called, The Malaysian Fellowship Missions.

its a Non-profit Organisation which consist of almost all medical students studying in Moscow Medical Academy and Russian State Medical University. and i got to know about the missions thing when i was in 1st year. Herman, now a graduated full-fledge Doctor, was the person that actually inspired and sparked the flame in me to participate in these missions. i wanna thank him in person so badly, because without him, i wont the same person as i am now. so THANK YOU!

this MF missions was found by a Malaysian student, named Dalvinder Singh. and the best part is he's from Kuantan, HOLAAA! :D he also graduated and is a Doctor now. he started the missions 3 years ago. the amazing part is the growth in participants, 3 years ago, only 20 students, then it gradually increased to 120, and this year, we have 350 participants, roughly i guess. pretty awesome huh? :D and i was one of them HAH!

so, the missions were all over SEA, countries like Malaysia, Philippines, Vietnam, Indonesia, Thailand, China, Russia, India, Cambodia.. etc were involved, and i was lucky enough to be in Team Philippines. and we were the pioneer team to do missions there, aha. :)

7 team members were heading to Philippines, Boss : Andrew Kok, Assistant Boss : Sylas Sebastian, team members : me, Kim Joibi, Radhikkha, Kate Chuah and Pan Ting Sun (who is studying in Volvograd, another town in Russia which is 8 hours away from Moscow). lucky number 7.

#LCCT

# and me. :)

# AirAsia is just a true blessing to all the missions. THANK YOU!

and so, we flied to Manila then to a city down south of Philippines with Philippine Airlines, called Davao City.

# Ass. Boss's name were on a sign in the Clarkfield Aiport. :D

# Manila International Airport

we arrived at Davao City and Heidi, our mission leader who was local, came to fetch us in her huge four-wheeled drive. and we went makan then off to a backpacker's place, i guess. it was very comfortable.

the next day, we were off to our mission destination, which is a village, deep deep DEEP inside the hills of Davao (i am so sorry but i really forgotten the name of the village, i am an epic fail i know). and the one of the best part is, we get to go up the hills with a truck with an open backside, wait that sounded wrong.. ahhhhh nevermind just look at the pictures then you'll understand ..

# got what i mean? :p

# the driver of the entire journey up the hill, most left. im sorry again for the obvious reason of not remembering names, i am failure thank you very much. -.-''

it was SOOOO AWESOME!! getting to ride at the behind of truck and wooing and jerking like a sakai who just came out of the forest at everyone who passes our vehicle, amazing. and also wanna give thanks to the driver as i mention before. he has been such a great help to the whole team and is just a blessing to have him. short info about him, he's a Missionary from Switzerland and have been staying in Davao City for almost 20 years now. he has been to so many missions up the villages in the mountains that he can speak so many of their different native dialects and languages, FLUENTLY! one of our team members, Kimberly Joibi, the girl in the above picture with the tongue sticking out, she's of half Kadazan (if i am not mistaken) and of half Philipino, and she was starstruck when she heared him speak, like literally O.O, aha..

and so, we went up the hills, the journey took us about 5 and a half hours. and we were nicely sun-tanning at the back seat, enjoying nature, saying hi to random people on the way. during the way up, we stopped by a small village to visit a native Christian school, where the headmaster's brother is working at the village that we were going to have our missions at.

# the headmaster is the 5th one from the left.

# on our way up. ;)

alright this post is gonna be in 2 or 3 parts because this is worth telling the entire story. more exciting ones to come, stay tuned! :D

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

i met this kid when we're on our way to Manila Aiport

he is one of the CUTEST boy i have ever met!

he was just clinging to me like a monkey clinging to a tree

the mum is the one behind

and he cried when the mum took him away from me

me too.. almost :)

and i will never, NEVER ever forget him

coz he left his little footprints in my heart that nothing can ever wipe it away..

Summer Holiday Trilogy. [Due]

2010-09-25T09:24:00.000-07:00

ok where did i stop? hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. owh ya, the short but fantastic family vacation. yeah it was definitely memorable, me and my mum talking about.. basically everything, from her childhood, to her teenage life, to her university life, to her marriage life and how i suck at being a filial son, whatever.. im just kidding.

but me and mum are like really, really close. 'duhhhhhhhh.. dude, you're from her.' ok yeah, but still some of my friends, when they skype with their mums or dads, all they say is :'' ya everything is fine here. ya i have enough money, oh no wait! i think you need to bank in a little bit more. ya the weather here is cold. ya mum of course i am eating properly here. yes mother i have been studying, and no i am not on the laptop e.v.e.r.y.t.i.m.e.. ok mum fine, i will go and study after this. *rolls eyes*'..'' bla bla bla.. and with all the usual heart-warming conversation that really bring tears to the eyes.. -.-''

ok im being carried away, where was i?.. ohya summer vacation ya. alright, so after the short family break, did i mentioned it was totally fantastic? i did right.. lol. and so after that. another afs activity! since every year Kuantan has been receiving quite a handful of exchange students and honestly, im very proud of my mother, because of her AFS is known in Kuantan and the afs office trust in our ability to host more students. that means more work. -.-

and so, the exchange students have been hosted in Kuantan for almost 1 month, to date (they're here for year program exchange, one year in Malaysia). and according to afs protocol, we are suppose to have an arrival orientation for all the students. so since i was in my hometown, me and my friend, another AFS volunteer decided to volunteer for this orientation. we had this orientation in Sungai Lembing, a small village at the outskirts of Kuantan, approximately 25km away from town. i have to say, its one of the most charming and traditional Chinese villages thats still existing in Pahang, it is now a hot tourist attraction spot. and this village also used to be the biggest tin-mining area in the ENTIRE world. pretty cool huh? :)

instead of me blabbing, i present..

# a huge ass centipede. more like a kilopede -.-

# one of the main reason to climb the infamous Sungai Lembing Mountain.

# and voila, the epic reason to climb the mountain. simply breathtaking. :)

sorry for the lack of piccas, stoopid hostel line is KILLING ME!

STAY TUNED! i saved the BEST for LAST!! im too lazy to continue -.-

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

be good

be safe

play hard

play safe

i'll miss y'll. :(

Summer Holiday Trilogy. [Uno]

2010-09-19T23:40:00.000-07:00

alright alright i know.. jesus christ its been 3 months since i last visited my own blog, OMG! even when i am back home in Malaysia i didnt even bother to update this baby. i am so sorry :(

well, lets say that my life's been very full and daily blogging is NOT my thing. but i've got loads of stories and pictures to share with y'll..

as most of you know, i am studying in Moscow and all the Malaysian students here got to go back to our home country during summer holiday for 2 months, and it was last 2 months. nobody was left behind, and i have to say my summer holiday was a BLAST! i have never thought i would have the ability to do so many things in just 2 months, and my mom takes 2 months to just get out of the bathroom.. :D

for the first week i arrived, my home-brother, Mr. Kaesee Woon invited me and my friend to Singapore, and i've never seen him in like God-knows-how-long, so off we went to visit him.

# host

# the Russians and the Singaporean, konon-nya. ;)

i really had a great time in Singapore, not to mention that i bloody hell-ly lost my beloved wallet to some idiotic mindless soul sucking losers, other than that it was an awesome trip! thanks for having us there and i really appreciate it. thanks bro! :)

as you all know i am avid fan of AFS, for those who don't know, its an exchange program for students to go abroad to other countries to experience different culture and be exposed to different people and different languages. and i am a returnee from this AFS exchange program and am currently a volunteer for AFS, where we help out during orientations when students from other foreign countries come to Malaysia for student exchange. (side note : we don't really help out, more of create 'chaos' and have fun!)

so back from Singapore, immediately i have to rush to KL the next day for an AFS arrival orientation, which was in a hotel near Monorail Station Maharajalela. so for 3 days i was there with other volunteers, omg the fun we had, the work we did, the laughter we shared, the stress we underwent.. all was worth it.

# us.

it was definitely memorable and it was a hell of an experience. yeah we make mistakes and tumble on rocks once in a while, but it is a learning process, its not easy to be an AFS volunteer. a volunteer once said :'' before every orientation, i have to go visit a Psychiatrist to get prepared for them..'' LOL, its funny but true.. but in the end, we really, really had fun and i made some incredible friends on the way. once an AFS volunteer, always an AFS volunteer.. and i am proud to be one. :)

and of course i did spend time with my family, because my mum was like moody and emo-ing at the fact that i didn't really spend much time with her and also for the fact that i am only back here for 2 months. so, since my dad coincidently had a meeting at Genting, my mum decided that we all go there for a short family break..

# on our way there.

unfortunately it was only a day trip so not much pictures were taken, although, i have to say, i really enjoyed myself spending time with my family, especially my mum, yayyyy for mummy! :D so after my dad finished his meeting, we went back straight to Kuantan. (my hometown)

omg there's SOOOO much more that i wanna talk about my summer holiday, and i should save the best for last. part 2 is coming out soon! :D i hope..

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

i would soooooooo do you when im back home.. *drools*

semplice

2010-07-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

we take things for granted,

too easily..

when things come into our way,

too easily..

sometimes, the best things in life are

just, right in front our eyes..

just, overcovered by all those lies ..

just, been around us all our lives..

'yo dude its just simple, all you have to do is..'

do you know simple?

# yet, simple is so complicated, right?

from Malaysia, with love,

-stillatstake-

sorry for the lack of updates,

will update more about my vacation back at home.

and sorry for all these crappy emo posts,

i suck at blogging thank you very much. :(

randomism :)

2010-06-04T12:19:00.000-07:00

for the first time, well not exactly THE first time, but the first time in a looooooooooooooooooooooong time, i am finally, like FINALLY, alone in my unit. ok, my unit, a.k.a my so called 'apartment', has 2 rooms, one room for 2 people, the other one is for 3. i am staying in the 3 people room, and today, they ALL went out, for their purposes, and i am like, 'YESSSSSSSSS!' finally this place is MINEEEEEEE! muahahahahahahahaha.. *evil laughter*

i have longed wanted this peace and quite for a long time. and God heard my callings. Thank You! and so, now im here..

well, what happened so far? i just finished my few major pain-in-the-ass exams in the past few weeks, includes Latin, Biology, Histology, Anatomy and Russian. i knowwwwww.. tell me about it. anyways, your's truly had managed to pull everything off and survived the hurricane, but i must tell you, it was DEFINITELY not a bed of roses, especially Histology and Biology.. you know what, i don't even wanna talk about it.

still, the hurricane has not end yet, i still have Physics and General Chemistry to go. and these mtfkrs are not easy man. talk about killing us, softly..

BUT GOOD NEWS IS, after the hurricane, i can finally dance in the rain, the Malaysian rain! yeahhhhhhhh! :D my final paper is gen chem, and thats on the 18th of July, and i am going back at 24th of July! omg talking about going back just gives me the creeps.. :D

ok back to reality, gonna start studying next week, AGAIN i knowwww.. geeezz.. still hate it, never liked it.

# i want a jersey! :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZ0FXryuXZc - been addicted to this song lately. :)

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

look at this,

and just pretend,

that its us..

simple

2010-05-26T11:46:00.000-07:00

a simple greeting

a simple gesture

a simple pat at the shoulder

a simple 'here, want some gum?'

a simple offer

a simple slice of pizza

a simple burger

a simple text

a simple call

a simple ride to the mall

a simple walk down the street

a simple treat

a simple smile

from you,

is enough to send me all the way straight,

to cloud nine..

from Russia,

-stillatstake-

life is simple

that's the way i see it,

for now. :)

Happy Double Birthday.

2010-05-18T13:56:00.000-07:00

although its already over, its 2 days thats worth remembering and thats yesterday and the day day before yesterday, 15th and 18th of May. why? because 2 very special kids were born..

# 1 - Mr. Tay Jun Yan

# 2 - Mr. Vu Jin Hong

for #1, i've knowned him for nearly a year and half, since we started college together. He's this big guy who's loves basketball and loves his family a lot. although he might seem big and tall, he has a very soft spot for music, and is an awesome piano player! (he's a diploma holder i guess).

# yup, the master and the faker. :p

for #2, hehehe.. knowned him since primary school but was never close, just sorta had a hi, bye relationship, thats all. got really closed to him after we started college together. since then, he has been my best mate in Moscow. :)

alright 3 pictures were towards the mirror so what?! guys camwhore once a while too, don't give me that look.. :p all i wanna say is..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

生日快乐!

С ДНЕМ РОЖДЕНИЯ!

BUON COMPLEANNO!

FELIZ CUMPLEAÑOS!

although there were some bumps and bruises on the way, deep deep deep inside, i wish you the very best of everything, and most importantly, take good good care of yourself, despite the messed up lifestyle and stress we're facing here.

# up or down, high or low, i'll be there for you..

scientist has proven, and came with the result, that the 3 hardest things to be spoken, or to be said, are these :-

i) Help me.

ii) I'm sorry

iii) I love you.

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

and yeah,

i love you..

both, very much..

me.

2010-05-14T11:53:00.000-07:00

annoyer
bullshitter
compassionate-sucker
deprived
epic-emotioner
failure
girlfriend-needed
half-blood
ignorer
jackass
keep-distanced
lunatic

me.

this is me.

i am not changing any of me.

take it,

or leave it.

from Russia, still with love

-andstillatstaketoo-

dedicated to the Lady

2010-05-10T00:07:00.000-07:00

57 years ago,

Grandpa and Grandma gave birth to her,

she's a beautiful baby, with her big and round body,

she was the apple of everyone's eye,

with eyes so pretty, it shines..

she grew up in a village,

with vegetables, poultries and chickens that were not in cages,

and she would help grandpa in the market,

selling fresh, sincere products of the farm to all the smiling mothers,

instead of plastics, huge leafs and rattan baskets.

and there she was, as a teenage,

full with hormones and rampage,

a convent girl's school she went,

a position as a school Prefect she had,

and also as the second biggest girl in town, she said it with a huge laugh.

all she wanted was to get out and adventure,

and so Australia she went for furthering her studies,

with the grass definitely greener, and people's second names were affectionist,

although some were occasionally racist,

that didn't stop her from being extra friendly.

at 34, its time for another explore,

mountain climbing, jungle hiking, scuba diving,

and finally, she met him.

with her enormous laughter as he's bait,

and destiny took place, and send magical sparks all over the place.

she is his first, and still is,

his appreciations, his love, touched her deep, within.

and yes, marriage was inevitable.

after 9 months of hell, her life went hay wired,

i brought nothing but chaos and mess,

with the house upside down and unpressed dress,

i was a pain,

but, that didn't stop her from being extra loving.

she's like a bottle of wine,

with taste, texture and smell, fines with passing time.

her life, is her journal,

is like a work of Picasso, where everyone will treasure,

with time, and forever.

Happy Mother's Day. i love you mummy.

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

Labour Day. :)

2010-05-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

hmmmmmmmmm.. how should i start this post? oh well, lets go with im having holiday now, AGAIN, i knowwwwww right? and i thought Malaysia has the most holidays, bullshit..

but major YAYYYY for all of us, no Histology, and most importantly, no bloody Physics!! hahahahaha!! :D ok the holidays are Labour Day for last saturday and today's Monday, so they forwarded the holiday till today. :)

''so what you did during holiday?''.. well the Labour day holiday was just pure awesome-ness and pure adrenaline for some of us. why? because we went to a THEME PARK!! yesssss and i thought Moscow was a boring capital.. *smacks forehead*

# see that ferries wheel behind.. :)

# cotton candy crave! :D

but the funniest part is, we didnt plan to go to the theme park AT ALL from the beginning. at first we wanted to go to this place because there's a new shopping mall there, so just wanted to go for some window shopping.

# window shopping my foot! -.-

ended with one t-shirt and a disappointed heart cause the shopping mall just opened and it was oh-so-BORING! it wasn't lively at all and everything was just wrong. so we decided to come again next time. oh did i mention we were the first batch of Malaysians to set foot at this mall.. HAHA *proudness*.. it needs more Malaysians to bring this mall alive. :D

and as we were going back, we passed by the theme park (btw all these are at VDNX metro station for those who are interested in going, orange line after Prospekt Mira and Rizhkaya station) and we just wanted to check it out to give it a shot. and as usual, ended up with this..

# fugly -.-

it cost only 150 rubles and it was the ultimate adrenaline boost we needed in such a LOOOOONG time. omg since when was the last time we became kids all over again? hehe :)

the ride just made our Labour day that much awesome and memorable. but after the ride, the rest of day was just 'im so tired'.. 'sooo sleepy laaa'.. 'i feel like vomitting'.. 'can i go home?' -.-

after the theme park, we went to chill out at sportiv hostel and it was another awesome part. the seniors are amazing, especially those who can cook. omg don't let me start on the food.. they made us chicken parietal and some dhal dish and it was sex. like literally the food was having sex with my taste buds, one word, orgasmic-much! i am certainly NOT exaggerating, the food they made for us was THAT freaking good! i literally had to unbuckle my belt coz my tummy wants more space.. -____-'''

after dinner, came back almost after midnight, youtube-ed a while and poof.. zzzzzzzzzzzz

and so, that sums up my this short holiday, next week we might have another holiday, i know i know.. need i say more? HAHA :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fOGiOST3EE&feature=related

# im not a JB fan, but you can't deny that this song is addictive. :p

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

and i so wish the other half was you..

Holiday shucks..

2010-04-21T02:31:00.000-07:00

alright this is funny, me updating this on the last day of my 4 day long holiday. well, im accumulating everything i was doing and update everything here in one-lum-sum. nahhhhh.. actually i was really really lazy and using that as an excuse. :p

ok the purpose of our holiday, is for the infamous Mr.Hitler's birthday, which was yesterday, 20th April 2010, and the Federation of Russia was oh-so-kind to give us a 4 day holiday, including Sunday, it was Mon, Tues and Wed. during this period of time, we as foreigners are not advisable to go out, actually was NOT allowed, because Hitler's supporters are not exactly the friendly-and-normal-type people we usually encounter, and they usually roam and owned the streets of Moscow during this memorable day. so we were advised to stay in-home during this period of time. aaaahhhhhh.. :(

so what i did this during so-called 'holiday'? lets see hmmmmm...

ok besides lifeless-ly camwhoring, we did something else too laaaaa aiyoo..

i've got 2 mentors, Dhanraj and Wilson, which are really good pool players. imma improve my skills before going back hommmmeeee. :)

besides, we also went jogging around the area and played abit of frisbee because we have been lazy-ing and couch-potato-ing all this time, and trust me, vigorous exercise after soooooooo long of not exercising really can give a pain-in-the-ass-and-tighs-and-waist-and-arms, like literally.

and so, TADAAAAAAAAAAA... that certainly sums up my Hitler's Holiday, well it was a bit lifeless but im proud to say that i have a bunch of people here that will be there for me no matter what. Thank God i found them. :)

# peace out. :)

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

and i thought,

i was all alone in this world. .

timetable for suicide -.-

2010-04-14T14:03:00.001-07:00

the word e.x.a.m.s, lemme break this down for you..

1. Anatomy - great, confident, awesome. :D

2. Physics - a total and utter mess, we ALL have zero respect for our 'lecturer', but still managed to finished up the paper.

3. Mathematics - same as above, just a little not so exaggerating.

4. Latin - omg one of absolute MOST boring class EVER! and also one of my epic weakness :(

5. last but not least, Histology - coming this Saturday, haven't prepared a single squat yet, but having the kind of unknown confidence swelling inside, hmmmmmm..

and so there you have it, exams for us in just a mere 2 weeks. and next week the cycle continues, and continues and continues until we go back home, as in Home, Malaysia.

today's a special for all Indians because today is Tamil's and Punjabi's New Year. so went to a Sikh Temple ( which is called Gudwara ) just now with all my indian fellows and had a wonderful time. they pray i pray, they bow i bow, they sing i shut up. :p then at the end comes the best part, FOOOOOOOD! they gave us all free traditional Punjabi food and it was mm mm finger-likin' gooooood! it was awesome i swear, just that there was one dish that was made of sour milk, and i wasn't a big fan of it. but the others was great, like they served beriyani rice, and green bean dhal, and one kind of cheese dish that just screams AWESOME! you know, sometimes, i kinda think to myself, that maybe, just maybe, i was an Indian in my previous life, because im seriously lovin' the Indian culture. :)

its late now and i have Biology class tomorrow morning, so signing off now. byeeeee :)

from Russia, with hearts,

-stillatstake-

listening back to Jay Chou's song,

is like flipping through an old album,

where things are so much more..

what's it called?..

'simple'

say bye-bye to emo and hello sunshine! :)

2010-04-10T12:25:00.000-07:00

woooffsshh.. my mom would be ecstatic when she sees this! :D -->

me,

from this,

to..

*drum roll please.. dum dum dum dum....*

*VOILA!!*

# yupx, i finally got the balls to cut my hair. :)

talking about constant complaints, no one can do it better than my mom i swear. the follow are the few things that is in her 'must-tell-to-zineu-during-skype-session' list : -

1. how are you? obviously. but usually drags on for about half an hour.

2. if i say i ain't fine, she would go 'OMG! is there another bombing?!' and she gets all tensed up, and i mean REALLY tensed up, and comes the whining and blabbing and stuffs that comes out from her when she's paranoid. and now when my mom's reading this she will go 'nahhhhhh thats not true, how dare you say that?' and on my defense, dad, you were there and you know the truth. :)

3. and after an hour of chit-chatting, last but not least, 'eu, can you do me a favor?' 'yes of course, anything but cutting my hair.' 'whyyyyyyyyy?!'. and how many times we have skyped? numerous, and everytime she mentions it before the conversation ends. you get my point? parents can sometimes drive you nuts. its true okayyy? :p

but she was right after all, emo style is wayyyyyyy too yesterday for me, and the front part of my hair, (so-called 'fringe') has been really disturbing, and i mean REALLY disturbing. not only to me, but to others as well because i always have to fling my hair away so that i can have a clear vision on whom am i speaking to. -.-

the hair saloon was pretty far away, but 150 rubles for this hair and the distance, i am totally in favor and satisfied. :)

and i have bad news, your's truly just lost his wallet recently and it was painful. that wallet was a gift from my dad (how rare is that), since end of 2008, right before my Italian exchange as a gift, and i have been using it since then. i LOVE that wallet and i REALLY mean it. too bad i don't have a picture of it to show the world, but it will always be in my memory vault. :(

am having physics oral exam on Monday, wish me luck! :)

Hey Soul Sister - Train

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqw2BLdDzr4

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

and i wish,

it would land in the hands,

of a right guy,

doing things that can touch lives..

anatomy is so sexaaayyhh! :D

2010-04-06T07:59:00.000-07:00

i swear, today's one of the most tired.... wait, lemme emphasize, one of the MOST mentally tired day i had since i came here. i just came back from yet another killer exam, none other thaaaaaaaan, TADAAAAAA --> yup you got it right, none other than Anatomy.

i already explain in my previous blogs before why anatomy is such a pain in the ass. it just has the power to drain someone's mind power and energy out from the body just like that, *snaps finger*. no other subject can 'mentally kill' so many students.

and today's exam, was on Respiratory and Urogenital Apparatus. just in case for those who don't know whats Urogenital, it consist of Urinary and the Human Genital organs.

lets have a little anatomy lesson today shall we?

for respiratory, this i present..

# the lungs

# the larnyx

for urinary system, this i present,

# the urinary system, duhhhhhh.. -.-

for Human Genital Organs, this is present..

* for the guys *

# up : illustration from atlas / down : actual donated organ

* for the girls *

# same as above

# yup the G-spot :)

this is just even less than a quarter of what we have just studied for the past few months, and those who are on the way to make our lives even more miserable. -.-''

as for how we had our exam conducted, it was full oral, horrible, and terrifying, like this -->

# these are our 4 beloved anatomy teachers, they each have their own group of students to take care of, mine is the second one from the left, and on the table are the human apparatus. so when our names are being called, we go in front, they say the name of the human organ, and we point where is it, then they'll rate us. at least thats for my teacher. other 3 they each have their own style of 'torturing' us students.

from the left : Ms. Valentina, Ms. Svetlana (mine), Ms. Marina, and Ms. Nelly.

kinda satisfied with my performance in the exam today. at least, im still standing.. :)

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

next on the list :

Latin

Physics

Histology

graveyard..

we're just better hitchhikers

2010-04-03T15:13:00.000-07:00

what happened earlier this day? well, the folks of group 1-8 had Histology and as usual, we were the last to leave, because of our freaking dedicated teacher, Mr. Alexander. who prefers to waste our time by talking grandmother stories about body tissues than even letting us have a 5 minutes break.

from 9.30am till 12 afternoon, all we did in class was study, viewing specimens under microscope, drawing specimens, listening to his bullshits, wondering off when he's bs-ing and come back quickly before he noticed it. and the 'best' part is, we were supposed to have an mcq exam (its a routined test actually), but because he used too much time teaching, we didnt do it. and the 'best best!' part is, we gotta do 2 mcq tests next week. hoooooraaaayyyyyy.. my foot la..

and finally, the words, the magical words that made us all awake suddenly : 'my dear students, you can go now, you are free.' hhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *angel's song*.. changed my lab coat, chucked everything into muh bag, and poof! off to jalan jalan with dhan, rev and poo. :)

# gassy lemonade shucks! :(

had a nice day out, got to know more about the hidden beauties of Moscow, the Moscow River was an eye opener and the weather was sexayyhh as usual, for the past few days at least.. hehe :) and i can tell you, walking under this kinda weather is really an enjoyment, with the right pair of shoes and the right kind of company of course.

ohya, and one very small thing. just so you know, Metallica is coming to Moscow. *trying hard to keep himself calm but still* yes they are coming for their tour concert from 24th - 25th of April. might consider if the tickets are, you know.. hehe :)

think im bullshitting? here you go, TADAAAAAAAAA -->

# I KNOWWWWWWW! :D and dhan was like, stonestruck. LOL!

reached home at 5.30pm, was tired as f*ck, can barely open eyes, got ready in 45 minutes and off to birthday dinner. (next post) :]

Metallica - Turn the page

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dOibtqWo6z4&feature=related

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

sometimes,

the grass on a other field,

really does taste better. :)

Buon Compliano Lee!

2010-04-03T14:44:00.000-07:00

back from yet another awesome dinner, all thanks again to those who are born on this month. like today, a special friend, Lee Teck Horng, was borned 3 days and 21 years ago in Kelantan ( his bday is actually on April's fool day). on his actual birthday, we surprised him with a pie cake, and today, we surprise him again with another epic Chinese dinner.

# omg i swear this cake is pure ORGASMIC! can say that one of the epic best chocolate cake i've ever tried, like seriously!

# don't mind having it all over my face ;)

food was awesome, company was awesome, environment was okay, music was eff-ed up, zomg, the music they played, are those exact same ones that we have when we go to a Chinese wedding dinner, where they await the guest to arrive. got it? YESSS! can bang my head against the wall ady -_________-'''

i can say that he is my big brother and we can click quite well. some people who doesnt know him, thinks that he's weird because all, i mean ALL, besides me of course, of his machas are non-chinese, and we have a nickname for him, called Chindian. hehe :) i have a lot of respect for him and i think he's an awesome friend, and i am really REALLY proud to have him as muh brother! :)

Babi Minune - Sus Pe Mese

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iFrPEzyelDw

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

i know all you need,

is a simple Happy Birthday,

Happy Birthday! :)

latin latin.. oh why thou latin?

2010-04-01T11:26:00.000-07:00

another major SIGHHHHHH for me because your's truly is having latin exam.

owh when? like freaking tomorrow! *crying and bangs head against the wall*

# for me, it does, so badly.. :p

i was never, i mean NEVER, good at languages before. unless if you force me to learn the language, like in Italy, and btw, Italian is STILL my upmost favorite language EVER!

because..

# thats what im talking about! :D

but too bad, i can't continue speaking it because nobody is speaking it with meeeee.. sighhhh again.. *emo-ing* oh well, i always say procrastinating is useless, but im always doing it. geezzz..

im sorry readers, i know this post is totally pointless and random and rubbish, and pointless, all thanks to latin, i am undergoing this annoying boredom -_______- '''

*raising my frowns* should i or shouldn't i continue doing latin, although it is SO unattractive?

ohmygawd another eye-rolling dilemma.. -.-

Lifehouse - You and Me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzFuL_RteXc

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

# :)

29.03.2010

2010-03-29T03:47:00.000-07:00

290310 - a day to remember

just a few hours ago, a tragedy happened in the heart of Moscow. 2 suicide bombers, female to be exact, bombed 2 different metro stations in Moscow. from the latest news, 37 innocent souls were killed and dozens were injured. Metro station Park Kultury and Lubyanka (arrowed)

# google 'Moscow Metro Map' for bigger image

the first bomb went off at 7.52am at Lubyanka station, the very heart of Moscow. just miles away from Kremlin, where Red Square is. and also, just miles away from where we have our Anatomy and Histology classes. at 8.39am, another bomb blasted another station along the same line, Park Kultury station. around 12-15 people died at the scene.

the explosions occured during rush hours,where tonnes of people take the early metro to work, classes (like us) etc etc etc..

let the pictures tell the story..

# CCTV images after the bombing

# firefighters arrived crime scene immedietly

# due to the over-congested streets around the bombing sites, helicopters were used to carry the injured to the nearest hospital

# stampede turning back from crime scene

# police and firefighters keeping everything under control

# the casualties

the people of Moscow were great, they neither panic-ed nor created any havoc, for which the terrorists wanted. everything was calm and taken care of.

and for the ones who lost their loved ones in today's tragedy, may their Souls, be Rested In Peace..

David Cook - Permanent

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdMo_36zQDE

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

life,

so unpredictable,

so full of surprises,

yet,

so dangerous..

the usual :)

2010-03-27T15:09:00.000-07:00

the weather is really turning me on for the past few days. its was so damn good, and cooling, and breezy, that it was almost orgasmic. like for real! wearing winter coats are actually a burden now because it can get so hot underneath those layers of feathers.

oh btw, daylight time saving have been changed to 4 hours difference. so, the time difference between malaysia and moscow is only 4 hours, no more 5 hours. thats hell for us because we have one hour less to sleep and have to wake up one hour earlier than we usually do to go to classes! ARGHHHH! especially those irritating morning classes!

oh my GAWDDD! :(

but, at least i got to see greens and trees with leaves and flowers and beautiful skies with white fluffy clouds and people with their beautiful trench coats and me finally having the chance to wear one too hehehe :)

# of course this wont happen in moscow

and so, life goes on as usual, busy as hell. with exams all over the place in a few weeks time, thinking of that can just kill us. but the beauty of it, is that after all the annoying exams, we can finally GO HOME! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D 3 months exactly from now, i will be home, busy getting fat, finding my loved ones (my kuantan, kl and s'pore loves), and enjoying myself to the MAXXXX! :) omg the thought of going back just gives me butterflies. :/

# swimming!! sighhh.. ;(

oh well, patience is the best virtue. whats there to procrastinate about? :)

Terrified by Kara DioGuardi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZ7cozzm7Ag&feature=PlayList&p=3B7072B674EE00CC&index=9

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

window's opened

cool breeze blowin'

roomate's snorin'

me bloggin'

i miss home :(

this.in my mind.

2010-03-21T14:45:00.000-07:00

when i thought i've forgotten you,

you came back to me.

when i thought i failed you,

you helped pick me up.

when i thought my tears aren't worth it,

you came and made it all priceless.

when i thought missing you was a total waste of time,

you were there and can never fail to put a smile on my face.

and when i thought i lost you,

you found me..

nick lachey - did i ever tell you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_WY0xcjc00

at least i know,

i still have you..

Happy Birthday to Ket

2010-03-16T15:08:00.000-07:00

you're one of the funniest person i've ever met

you're one of most charismatic person i've ever met

and,

you're one of the awesome-est person i've ever met

# will always by my side

Happy Birthday!!

my wish to you,

is to be my best friend,

forever..

and i will be there for you no matter what..

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

bro,

i miss you,

and i love you.

the last fight. in snow.

2010-03-15T00:05:00.000-07:00

yes winter is almost over, YAYYYYYYYY for every Malaysian student. you have no idea how much we dreaded for the sun and heat for the past, 4 months i guess? but still the temperature is yoyo-ing and haven't reach a stable cooling temperature yet.

and so, we the 4th-floor-ians decided, before the cold ends, lets have the last snow fight. the snow was still thick and haven't fully melted yet, so why not?

# almost my height O.O

but one thing we don't know about, is the snow have been there for quite some time. and over the period, it harden up. it was so hard that even we could even stand on it, but not for long of course. oh btw, that mess in the snow from the pic was made by ussssss! -->

# the 4th floor-ians roxxx!! :D

this snow 'wonderland' was actually a park, with trees and benches and grasses during spring, autumn, but when winter strikes, no more. the snow actually reached my knee so it was difficult to move around, and that was exactly the fun part! yeahhhhh!

all night long, we fight, we raced, we fell, we laughed, we panted, we had fun..

# :)

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

ber-shopping

2010-03-14T07:24:00.000-07:00

and finally, another round of shopping for me before the weather totally changes. and only God knows when will i stop HAHAHA!! :D

this shopping mall i can say its one of the biggest one here in Moscow, its something like Kota Damansara in KL, where IKEA, The Curve and Ikano Power Station are all in one place. This one, it has IKEA also, but with two Moscow malls called Mega and Ashan.

this time it was all about spring. so got myself a pair of faded jeans and a small trench, *satisfaction* yeahhhh!

# Topshop trench tribute! :)

# faded jeans madness! :)

# pregnant lady much?

# Ray Ban freaking rules! :D

i got this two both for retail price and i swear the original price will blow your mind, especially the trench, talking about epic MAJOR discounts! hehe ;)

besides, i just had my histology mcq weekly exam again and 5/5 again, yeahhhhhhh again! not something to be proud of because almost everyone gets perfect 5. only 12 questions and those who didnt get 5 can bang their heads against the wall. ;)

im sooooooooooooo tired now, walking around malls can really burn those calories and strain up those muscles man. imma get myself a nice cup of hot chocolate and watch a nice movie and relaaaaaaaaaax.. ahhhhhhhhh..

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

'forget'

easy to say,

yet, to me,

its so hard..

he needs you

2010-03-11T12:42:00.000-08:00

his everyday job :

- missing you
- being emo because of you
- typing a long text for you but deletes it in the end
- thinking how to make you happy in all ways although he knows that he cant
- being mad at himself for what had happened between us

- trying to repair the broken relationship

- wish that he can do anything just to see that genuine smile on that face

- wish that we can see each other everyday, so that things would be better

- wish that you could actually talk to him

- wish that you could stop ignoring him because its killing him

if you asked..

# because he's dumb and stupid

and..

from Russia, with love

-stillverymuchatstake-

when you left him..

aku tak suka anatomy! :(

2010-03-07T11:54:00.001-08:00

aiyoooooooooooooo.. *hopelessness*

anatomy exam, day after tomorrow, studied shit little, hate it, never liked it, not even in a hundred years, why the human body has to so annoyingly complicated?!

ohmyfuckinggesus! -______-''

# inilah anatomy. epic phailure -___-''

well, nobody said doing medic is easy. so, *rolls eyes and exhales heavily*, i have to love it. *crying inside* ;(

from what i know, the anatomy we're doing in first year's syllabus is wayyyyyyy much easier than what is prepared for us in the future. the seniors are screaming for help during anat exam and we are just procrastinating. lucky much? hell no

'' dear anatomy, you're neither sexy nor attractive, and i am not studying or doing you, so can you please, pleaseeeeee eff off from my life?''

but i cant, it will be stuck with me for the rest of my miserable life. goshhhhhh..

# soon to be. x.x

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

anatomy and me,

is like water and oil

is like dog and cats

is like a bare feet and dog poo

rather no

2010-03-01T08:30:00.000-08:00

and how i wish, that you would know..

all these..

are for you..

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

right?

spring?

2010-02-27T15:09:00.000-08:00

say bye bye to winter and hello spring! :) gosh i am so excited about this season change, finally no more white endless white blankets and freckles, i want the greens and the colours!

today was one of the rare days that we have experiences so far, the weather was awesome, 2 degrees with a full blaze sun. we can actually feel the heat! we were like a bunch of lunatics, standing under the sunlight with arms spread wide open, and the mouths open wide saying 'ahhhhhhhhhhhh...', with our eyes closed. -_______________-'''

we just had Histology class today and we had exam. it was total mcq and only 12 questions, praise the Lord! :D most of us got 5/5 and i am one of them! yessssssss! anyway Physics exam is coming soon so there's nothing to be happy about. :(

just came back from yet another awesome dinner. this time we went to a Chinese restaurant at downtown Moscow. it has been like 4 months since i last ate a proper Chinese dinner, and it was gooooooooooood! :D this dinner was for our lovely Ms. Angeline's birthday, decided to celebrate there. btw, a big 'Happy Birthday!' to her.

so far life has been pretty fair to me. everything is going smooth and nice and smooth and nice. sometimes it can be as boring as hell but what to do. sighhhhh..

anyways, season's changing and that means, wardrobe changing! gotta get myself a trenchcoat soon and a pair of boots, if thats fine for my parents back home. hehe :)

# burberry's trenchcoats just spells awesome!

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

season's changing,

its time for a new phase,

but my heart's staying,

at where it was being placed.

i am still waiting

for you to get me out of this maze..

since you said i never miss you :(

2010-02-22T06:08:00.001-08:00

my parents are backkkkkk! :D the Hong Kong trip was great for them, i cant believe that my parents can still walk for HOURS even though they are now in their fifties. O.O

i know my mom, she's a real traveler, all she needs for travelling, is a really good pair of walking shoes, some cash, a devoted husband (muh dad) and a to-and-from air ticket, and POOF there she goes. tapi i memang kesian my dad lor, he told me that they both have been walking for 12 hours, 12 freaking HOURS, nearly non-stop..

and i was like :'' mom, can you please stop torturing daddy?'' LOL ;D

my mom's a special person, you can never, i repeat, NEVER find anyone like her. lemme jot down her specialties :

first of all, she's loud. as in LOUD.
then, she laughs louder than she talks. even her friends say so.
she hates makeups. her facial flaws are the ones that make her beautiful.
she hates jeweleries. nothing shines brighter than her smile.
her smile. can instantly brighten up a room.
her jovial-ness. as crazy as i am.
her husband, who has been through thick and thin with her, and made her the happiest woman 20 years ago until now, and still counting..
her personality. how can anyone hate her?
her determinations. except for her body weight, everything else is fine.
and last but not least, her heart. as innocent and pure as a newborn.

because she doesn't even know what are the followings :

- wtf

- wth

- btw

- pfft

- lol

- etc etc etc...

- LOL right? i'm like ''omg mom we're at the 21st century, not the 19th!'' -.-''

# the pretty lady herself

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

she's the reason i am here

she's the one that made everything happen

she's the greatest

she's my mom

and i love her, with all my heart

CNY.

2010-02-18T06:37:00.001-08:00

and so, my first Chinese New Year overseas. no angpaus, no red wrappers, no lion dance, no open house hunting, no kuih-kuih to makan, no explosive stuffs, no cny songs bombing at every corner of the town, no nothing..

but thank God, the cny dinner saved my life :)

# muh masterpiece, tadaaaaaaaa! :)

[corn + carrot + oyster mushroom soup]

# drooling-much? HAHA :D

another awesome + orgasmic dinner from the folks of 4th floor at Pushkin Institute of Russian Language a.k.a my hostel. :) but still, i miss my grandma's cooking back home, sighhh :(

then, for cny's and we-are-teenagers's sake, gambling! no pictures were taken but the drama was to-die-for! everyone was so engrossed and unbelievably devoted to the card game. your's truly was NEVER good at gambling, but i REALLY enjoyed myself to the maaaaaaaxxx!

p/s : poker ROCKS! damn awesome! :D

# p/s : they rock!

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

p/s : you rock too!

V-day

2010-02-16T12:17:00.000-08:00

St.Valentine's day. day of love, day of where women gets appreciated in a relationship. if a couple is truly in love, Valentine's day is just a number, because to them, everyday is a Valentine's.

people say..

all the time, but sometimes you wonder, do they really mean it? no matter in between couples or between friends. yet, it is a powerful sentence that requires skills, patiences, intelligence, and most importantly, courage. how ironic..

personally, randomness is more sincere. like..

1. giving her a bunch of roses on a random date besides Valentine's

2. prepare a candle-light dinner for her on a random night

3. giving her a hug from behind at any random times (women loves this) :]

4. saying a sincere ' I Love You' to her at any random moments..

could drive her crazily in love with you..

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

like how i used to be,

when i was naive..

God please save me from malls with sales on!

2010-02-13T11:02:00.001-08:00

epic failure la aku ni! kata nak jimat duit but when ternampak perkataan 'WINTER CLEAREANCE', or '50% - 70% discount', dah tak boleh tahan dah, aduhhhh.. *major shake heads*

and so, bought these babies out of resistance towards the great temptation of winter sales. -____-''

# Zara's

ok lemme explain the outrageous brand-consciousness, these two, before sales was a total of 5000 rubles, thats around RM480-500. and after sale, they cost around 1600 rubles. AWESOME right? :D

# the mall where everything went downhill -____-

# a huge ass fountain clock, niceeeeee :)

i shall vow now, after the festive's season's, i shall be back to my old self, the thrifty and money-conscious me. i shall and i will. *cross fingers*

btw, today's new year's eve. my people cooked and brought food for me, damn niceeee right? hearts them. :)

so as for cny, i will have one new t-shirt, one new pants and two pairs of shoes. satisfied! *exhales with smile on face* but no angpao!! sadddddd :(

lagi sad thing is, 2 years, 2 years not being able to celebrate CNY with my family, SIGHHH! fated lah, birthday and CNY. eff faith! :(

and now my parents dumped me and went to Hong Kong to enjoy themselves, noh fair!

- as conclusion, my life is pathetic it sucks i hate it thank you bye bye.

# :)

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

i still miss you

i cant even believe it..

Daughtry - Life After You

2010-02-11T12:59:00.000-08:00

"Life After You"

Ten miles from town and I just broke down

Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road

I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home

To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothin'

To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughing with you

I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after

After the life we've been through

'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked

Burns like an iron in the back of my mind

I must've been high to say you and I

Weren't meant to be and just wasting my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?

You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughing with you

I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after

After the life we've been through

'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one

After this time I spent alone

It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind

Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind

So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

Without you God knows what I'd do

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughing with you

I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after

After the life we've been through

'Cause I know there's no life after you

'all that i am after

is a life full of laughter

as long as i am laughing with you'

will i ever have the chance,

to even see you,

smile at me?

more to come -.-

2010-02-09T12:41:00.000-08:00

so, the 3rd day of the new sem. so far so good, everything was expected. and a HUGE thanks shoutout to Mr. Hari Krishnan aka muh roommate for that really REALLY awesome chicken dinner. we were supposed, ( with the -d letter at the end ) to be on diet together, but who cares.. pfft. ;b

good news : lecturers changed for some classes for the better, yessssss!

bad news : sem 2 is gonna kill us soon because its so freaking hectic! 10 times worst then last sem i swear! -__________-'''

now, we will only reach our hostel when the sun goes down, you can say i am weird but to be honest, i kinda like that. not the study from morning 9am till 5pm part, but the walking back in darkness part. hehe :p

for the new timetable, we will have to switch places constantly to attend different classes, everyday. and the distance between the class buildings is definitely NOT a stone's throw away, we have to take trips on buses and metros to reach our destination. and today, during the period when we interchange class buildings to another building for another class, it was snowing. not to say it was unusual but today's snow was really pleasant. it was soft and slow and the snow flakes were small. it looks exactly like the fake snow inside any glass ball.

and there we were, walking and chit-chatting and the snow was falling down, and all of a sudden, i miss home, and out of nowhere, these 2 pictures came to my mind :

how i wish you were here, so that we can make snowmans and snowwomans and snowbabies together ; how i wish you were here, so that i can throw snowballs at all of you ; how i wish you were here, so that i can actually enjoy the awesome snow view with you ; how i wish you were here, so that ............. everything could be better ........

# its all i wanna say

from Russia with love,

-stillatstake-

i am comfortable,

for who i am,

underneath my very own skin..

help!!

2010-02-07T09:52:00.000-08:00

goodbye freedom and hello hell. -.-''

ya you got it right, your's truly's sem 2 is starting, when? ermmmm lemme think.. freaking TOMORROW! sighhhhh..

and the best part is, i have not prepared anything yet to 'welcome' the new sem. our timetable is enough to kill us all. -

- 4 hours of physics -

- histology -

- Latin -

* screams and faints *

sighhhh.. procrastinating isn't gonna help much. lets just hope that things will be back to normal.

in order to welcome the fresh start, me and my roommates decided to re-decorate our room, which was in a really huge mess before this. so here is what we've done -

# tadaaaaaaaaaa, muh bed! neat right? :)

# me and Hari's shelf *proud*

totally forgotton to take the before and after picture, damn! but lemme paint you a picture, before this, the room was LITERALLY coated by dust and cockroaches were climbing on the wall, btw, russian cockroaches are smaller compared to malaysian ones. and now, the floor is spic and span, and the room just screams AWESOME! me loving it. :)

just had a great pre-hell dinner, i must say, the peeps of 4th floor are really good chefs and i am grateful to have them as neighbors and roommates. thank you :)

# maybe it wont be that bad, right?

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

i need help,

would you be there?

game over

2010-02-05T13:39:00.000-08:00

3 weeks, 3 weeks of doing-nothing-ness just passed by as if a speed car just drove by. good times always passes faster, noh fair! :(

and so, winter break is gonna be over in 2 days time, so far things have been pretty smooth, bumps are definitely inevitable. who cares neways? i have to say my winter break was a good one, not great but satisfied, because i have a bunch of great peeps to spend with. :)

1. first of all, my belated birthday dinner : -

# the epic bak kut teh dinner! yuuummmsss.. ;D *major drooling*

# master of chaos :p

# smilesss :)

2. the Thinesh's birthday ( roomate no.3 )

# giant serving of rice for 13 peeps

# what?? yes we are big eaters, as if you're not, btw the food just screams AWESOME! :D

well, we were too busy eating after that so pictures were ignored. then later birthday boy got bathed by different alcohols and drinks, he smelled like a drunk guy who just pissed on himself, LOL ;b.. as usual, the cake was tastyyyy and all of us stayed up till the wee hours :)

3. the chicken rice dinner :)

just some random awesome dinner!

# thanks to the peeps of 4th floor, this dinner was pure orgasmic! :D

4. clubbing 101

we went to 2 clubs, the first one was named 'Propaganda'. it was the so-called In club in Moscow. the dance floor is always filled with people, then because it was too full, we changed to another club and it was called 'Solianka'. that one was quite and it was so relaxing. we chit chatted and drank and chilled until the morning.. ahhhh

# jam packed with cigarette filled air, my hair and clothes smelled like as if i've been smoking for the past 10 years when i got out from here -________-

# DJ of the night, theme : hip hop techno

# drink of the night : epic red bull vodka, yummmssss :)

# not much pics coz pictures were not allowed, i know, wtf right? -______- '''

# and, tadaaaaa couple of the night! :p

i still cant believe that 3 weeks, 21 days just passed by me. the enthusiasism and excitement are still so fresh in my mind, and now its over. sighhhhhh.. :(

but all in all, i enjoyed my first winter break.

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

another round of hell is gonna start soon,

and i really, really,

need you, to survive..

dedicated to the Man

2010-01-30T12:24:00.000-08:00

when i havent even exist,

you did the greatest thing ever,

you met mummy.

when i was inside mummy,

you videotaped how i was behaving,

one word : lazy

and everyday, you anticipate for even my slightest movements.

when i was a baby,

you did everything,

from changing the diapers, to bathing me, to washing my poo poo..

and mummy would stand there and realise, what a great husband i just married.

when i was a toddler,

you and mummy would take turns sending me to kindergarten,

and i everytime, i would stand and the entrance, eyes red and filled with tears,

and at the end of the day, i would come back with a huge smile on my face.

when i was a kid,

creating problems would be my no.1 to-do-list,

and i was everyone's pain-in-the-ass,

but when no one was there for me,

you were.

when i was an adolescent,

everything went wrong for me,

endless troubles fall upon me,

i was disturbed,

and you came, and cleared everything for me.

when i was a teenager,

raging hormones haunted me,

constant argues slowly drifted us apart,

as usual, you'll keep all the arguments at the back of your head,

and at the end of the day, everything is back to normal.

he fell,

he tumbled,

he lost,

he crushed,

and he told me,

he warned me,

so that the mistakes wont be repeated.

and now,

everything is still normal, except for one thing,

i realized, what a great dad i have..

'Any man can be a father. It takes someone special to be a dad.'

-- Author Unknown

Happy Birthday Daddy!

from Russia, with lots of love,

-stillatstake-

at least i know,

i have a shoulder to cry on,

a special someone to fall back on,

and most importantly,

i have the first and only man,

for me to love..

If..

2010-01-29T15:35:00.000-08:00

If..

we were more closer,

If..

we were more mature,

If..

we were more caring,

If..

we were more understanding,

If..

i just have the balls,

to say I love you.. je ta'dore, ti amo, te amore..

If..

-stillatstake-

spero che lei ha capito come si parlato a qui,

spero tua capito miei sentimenti verso lei..

tutto voglio dire e..

l'amo..

the 22nd

2010-01-24T01:22:00.000-08:00

oh well, ignore the previous emo post. lets talk about something that is funieeeeeee! :D

and so, your's truly turned 19 a few days ago. not good, not good at all. that literally means, bye bye teenage crazy obnoxiousness and hello pain-in-the-ass adulthood. gosh -.-

anyways, i did had a wonderful awesome time over here with a bunch of loves to celebrate my 19th with me.

first part..

we celebrated a double bday, the one in white, his bday was on the 21st.

they cooked dinner for me, and i have to say, russian cakes, even though you bought it at any random tom-dick-and-harry store, it tastes friggin' AWESOME! omg, that ice cream cake was finger lickin' yummmmmy! :D

then, received a call from my rommie, went straight downstairs, this is what happened..

second part..

the second cake *before*

*after* -______-

roommie #1 (in blue)

roomie #2

# heart the bday present :)

after the mess and chaos, we played truth and dare, it was a nightmare in hell. unfortunately Lady Luck wasnt on my side that day and i got dared like a hundred times. -__________-

of the many nightmares was licking the tongue of a same sex, giving a hicki to another person, french kissing bla bla bla.. and no pictures was allowed so im sorry :) what happened in moscow stays in moscow. ;p

more pics will be in facebook soon :)

i realised,

that this is the 3rd year i am not able to celebrate my bday with my family, 3 years. ohmygawd..

this will be the last year, i promise my mum and dad. *fingers crossed*

# skype works like a charm i swear

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

i did enjoyed myself

its all ever wanted for my birthday..

thank you..

winter break dilemma

2010-01-19T10:08:00.001-08:00

and so, im bored to the max now. congrates on your stupid idea of staying back here instead of actually listening to your parents for once to go back home, so that they dont have to miss you so much zineu.

but, i have to say, staying back isnt all bad, luckily i got him, her, she, he, them with me to waste this whole winter break with me.

well, epic phailure in the attempt to shop till i drop because your's truly here has his mum's heavenly thrifty genes -______________________-''''

yes mum i know you're looking at this and cursing under your breathe.. LOL :D

well so far, i've been..

camwhoring and shopping..

eating out.. korean to be specific *drools* :)

visiting places..

i know the pictures are a lil' too little, but i promise i will take more and post more next time.

i always tend to forgot my beloved camera when i go out, plus its winter, who wants to step out of their house? pfft..

dal Rusia, con amore

-stillatstake-

with all of you here,

i thank God for it..

aching heart

2010-01-16T07:50:00.000-08:00

ohhh, how i wish you were here..

how i wish i can hold you everytime when its snowing,

how i wish i can wake you up in the morning, and remind you that there's class today,

how i wish, how i wish..

oh well, life aint fair, dreaming aint gonna bring you any benefit nor satisfaction, so lets move on..

and so, what happened lately huh? hmmmmmm ohya! i passed my bioorganic chemistry finals already, thats worth a celebration man! wheeeeeeeeee! :D finally one pain in my ass is done, and done FOREVER, because i dont have to see that shit anymore EVER! epic LOL! :) :)

BUT, some other subjects will replace bioorg, like histology? omg, thats like the evil twin of anatomy.. *shake heads*

as for today, just came back from this awesome Korean restaurant down town and had some gorgeous korean food, after such a looooooooooooooooooooong time not being able to eat a proper asian lunch. we had bbq meat and korean mixed rice? i guess.. it was good. one word, satisfied *smiless* :)

seriously, i really have to cut down my spendings into half, i have been spending sooooo much this month and i feel so guilty, sorry mum.. :(

and tmr, shopping again! weeeeeeeeee! :)

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

you're crazy

you're an asshole

you're dumb

you're stupid

but i love you..

new year. bullshit

2010-01-04T02:39:00.001-08:00

dear blog,

and so, 2010 arrives. when i was younger, i used to think new year is something that's really worth celebrating about. it shows that us, mankind @ humans has lived on this world for another year. well, it is a day worth celebrating, but after all, everything else turns back to normal. its not that im splashing cold water or what so ever, this is only to my opinion, to me, this 2010 isn't anything special but just another time passing by, and its passing really fast.

for me, new year means :

- getting older

- making new year resolutions that will never be succeeded, maybe once in a blue moon

- more stress in this effing medical school

- entering another phase in life, which sucks big time because maturing is NEVER my thing

- and more stress..

sigh...

eff the emo talk, moving on..

when i come to think of it, this is the 4th year that i never spend new year or christmas at home. 4 years, since i was 15. ohmygesus. i owe my family soooooooo much man, not to mention the amount of pressure i placed on my mum and dad for letting them worrying about me when im overseas. i promise, next year, i hope, no no screw that, i WILL celebrate christmas and new year with them, please Jesus, help me out on this..

2010 wasn't a pleasant start for me to be honest. things was not going as smooth as i thought. but, it was ok, at least it was memorable. all i can say is, hell i wish that i can move every single one of you from Malaysia to Russia..

i know you're reading this mum, i can see that smile on your face, dad you too :)

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

i miss you,

and when i say it,

i really do mean,

i miss you..

but Santa ditched me and flew to see you :(

2009-12-26T23:16:00.000-08:00

dear blog,

FINALLY, i have the time to update you. my roommates are sleeping and its a kinda gloomy Russian Sunday morning, so no more excuses to not fill you up with my latest happenings. :)

before i start, a HUGE 'MERRY CHRISTMAS SHOUTOUT!' to all who is reading this, new year is just around the corner so might just as well give a 'HAPPY NEW YEAR SHOUTOUT!' to y'll. i hope u got what u wanted from Santa and wished u had an awesome-licious Christmas this year. :D

so, about me, well, as usual, almost got murdered by exams. u know whats the best part is, there are STILL more to come.. i know, epic -__________- right?

well, again i say, doing medic ain't that easy. i chose this path, i am ready for the consequences.

enough about exams and misery, moving o to the fun part. yesterday night was truly AWESOME! :D the seniors had a christmas party for the juniors a.k.a first years a.k.a rookies and i was part of it. the attire of the night was 'formal'. so i thought, why don't mess around with traditional rules a bit. instead of choosing a formal attire, i picked this stripped hoody long sleeve shirt and paired it with a pair of jeans. and i even asked my friend to put eyeliner for me so that i looked gothic. *btw, i really do look different with eyeliner ;p*

but, still, in the end, my friend said that it was too appropriate and asked me to change, so i thought back and forth and ya, i changed. -.-.. i know what u thinking about, its not that i got no balls, just that its a formal function and i wanna leave a good impression for the seniors. so fuck it, i hopped on my shirt and pants and we left.

the venue was unbelievably deserted and upnorth of Moscow. but the building was really cool, it was like a see through building where it was made of glass. ya pretty cool huh? :)

so we ate and chit-chatted and ate and chit-chatted and camwhored and ate... the food was oh-so-AWESOME! it was like sex i swear.

the girls were having cocktail dresses on and the guys, some were having their tuxs on and some shirt and vest, overall, everyone looks good.

the best part is, after the lecturers left the party, *lecturers were invited as well*, it really turned into a real partayyyy! they opened up the dancefloor and they jammed the house down with awesome christmas dance music. we danced and we flirted and we tried to get numbers but phailed and we dance ....

i just woke up, my stomach is alerting me that it needs fuel so i better go grab something to eat now. more pics will be up in facebook so go check it out.

thats all from me now, ciaozz :)

from Russia, with love.

-stillatstake-

everyone's saying

'all i want for Christmas is you'

got so tired of reading the same sentence

over and over again

but still,

deep inside,

my only Christmas wish,

is You..

dedicatd to my First Love, Italia

2009-12-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

well, back to normal now. all the fun and and enjoyment has to come to a halt for the arrivals of the O'Mighty devilish exams. -.-.. just a quick fact, if exams were humans, i would describe them as little Hitlers, who needs no weapons but kills like a pro. literally.

ohya a small THANKS shoutout to the lovely Miss Angie Loong who kindly reminded me and us about the awesome history we had in Italy last year..

we left the nest,

at this very exact date,

for an adventure so great,

that we never saw it coming..

everyone did and i can guarantee enjoyed themselves to the MAX, and it was truly a life-changing experience, for the mind, for the heart, for the soul..

some of us still keep in touch, some lost, unfortunately..

lets talk about my experience. fate brought me and the Gentile family together and they were my loves for 2 months. vividly, i can still smell the aroma of pasta at the doorway and the smile on my host dad's face when he sees us, right after i come back from school with Francesco. vividly, i can still feel the cold and the sunlight pouring into my room on my skin, on a beautiful Sunday morning. vividly, i can still hear my host dad screaming my name from outside :'' Eugenio! venire qui!'' " perche?'' (grumpy tone cause just-woke-up syndrome) ''come here to cut woods!''.. -.-

vividly, i still remember the touch of my host cat's fur on my lap, when she's asleep, and the way she played with me, like no other animal did. vividly, the image of me playing volleyball with the rest of my classmates and the way we laughed so hard after a great match can be heard still, ringing distantly. vividly, the overwhelming feeling of gratitude and excitement still crawls on my skin every time when my mind takes me on a trip back to Rome. the Colosseo, the to-die-for cup of espresso, cappucino, ciocolata calda, to arrays of mouth watering gelatoooosss!.. still gives me goosebumps, and made me crave them even MORE!

sometimes..

when i roam back to that 2 month time, i really wished that, Lady Luck was there with me, so that i can make a 'freeze time' wish and she can grant it for me. throughout my 18 years of life, i can say that this is one of the greatest give from God to me. my love to Italy and to them is endless, and my story in Italy will definitely be passed down to the next generation..

instead of words...

yet, still, pictures are not enough to express..

how much i miss my 2 months, in paradise...

from Russia, with love,

-stillatstake-

You will always, ALWAYS

be my first love..

la manco L'Italia

saro di ritorno presto

ti amo..

bathing 1 month in the Russian air

2009-12-06T06:39:00.000-08:00

omg everything is a huge mess now.. last whole week was a total chaos! but it was oh-so-pain-in-my-ass and oh-so-FUN! :D

lets start with the pain-in-the-asses first. well, as was in my previous blog, last week was seriously eff-ed up week for exams. they dominated us students and brought us down to our very knees. 4 exams, 4 effing exams in one week, out of 6 days of classes and lectures. well, in the end, we are still standing firm. it was tough i have to say, and the best part of this is, i didnt fail a single subject! epic-LOL-ness :D! yup definitely proud of myself and all the hardwork did paid off :) BUT, the outcome of all the hardwork : free eye makeup (dark circles) -___-

then to the oh-so-funs. first of all, yesterday was my roomies birthday. so we decided to celebrate it in a club at downtown Moscow. it was a all guys night out and it was seriously unforgettable. in total it was a 13 guys group. we planned this party for over a week already, and 4 clubs were chosen. one effed up thing here in Moscow, or where ever part of the world is, the clubs here, they have something they call the face control. that means there will be security guard standing outside of the club and control the crowd moving in. if there is 'trouble' word plastered over your face, they will not let you in. we all passed the face screening, *thank God*.

and so, the rest of the night was just drinking + dancing + checking out russian chicks = woah! unfortunately, i got a bit tipsy and i got the worst headache ever in my life when i woke up this morning, eh no, afternoon. by the time we got back to our hostel, it was about 7 something in the morning. by the way, a BIG Happy Birthday shoutout to Hari Krishnan! Happy 20th Birthday! ohya, one more thing, walking in the cold bitter winter of about negative 3 degrees with a huge heavy head plus effing-ly sleepy eyes was NOT a wise thing to do. lol :D

the night before clubbing, i had the most epic dinner in my life in Moscow! we had this so called 'family day', where we all cooked together and makan sama-sama.

there is 14 floors in my hostel, i stay at 4th floor, the other ex-lincoln-ers stays at either 13th or 14th floor. so when we all group together, we are one huge family. :) it was totally fun cooking together and eating and laughing and joking at each other's dishes and taking pictures and enjoying and bla bla bla... overall, yesterday night was a.m.a.z.i.n.g and A.W.E.S.O.M.E! i heart heart love love you guys!! :D :D!

actually, coming to russia wasnt really a wrong choice as i would thought before. well, at least i didnt regret a single thing, besides the fact that i have to leave all of my loved loved LOVED ones back home, that hurts. you know who you guys are,and yes i totally miss you! dont have to mention about my lovely parents and of course i miss them to bits! one message from me, i am fine fine fine and i am still... in one piece? LOLsss :D

ohya before i forgot, a HUGE birthday shoutout to my lovely all time favorite girl (besides my mum) --> Yvonne Lin Li En! lets talk a bit of a history between me and her, i have known her since the very first year of my high school time. i still remember there was this period of time where i got a crush on her, form 2 i guess. well, lets not talk about that since she's got my buddy as her bf waiting to slaughter me if i continue to type that embarrassing history out so lets move on.. lol :D and ya, i started getting close to her since after 4th grade and the rest is history. by far, her transformations in looks is the most obvious. she used to be this typical nerd looking girl with flying colour grades, and now, ugly duckling to a swan, she is a beauty with brains, and looking stunning. although not to forget the slight pinch of nerdness and innocence she STILL has after so many years. lol.. and i call her my favorite because she's the only one that i can really talk to and connect with without hesitating on what should i say to her or what-so-ever. i miss her tonnes definite.. ;(

and so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YVONNE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~.. my birthday wish for you is of course for you to be always happy as usual, keep that hyper-ness and happy-go-lucky-ness in you until i get back. and not to forget, stay sweet and appreciate your relationship now as you two took a whole 5 years to find each other, this is the type of relationship that i would really cherish and salute, and to my opinion, you two look oh-so-perfect for each other :)

p /s : by the way, i am waiting for your wedding invitations :p

thats all from me now, adiousssss..

from Russia, with love.

-stillatstake-

if God would grant me ,

to send one, and only one thing,

back home,

i would say :

' i cant because my LOVE is too huge to be parcel-ed up'

and God would say :

'son, there is nothing too small, neither too huge for Me'

and so, He sent it,

..........

.........

.......

.....

...

have you received it?

a b c d e x a m s i e f f i n g h a t e y o u x y z

2009-11-26T14:51:00.000-08:00

exam exam exam exam exam exam exam fuck you! please eff off will ya?

gosh, why do they have to torture us in the most brutal way ever? i know the fact that doing medic is definitely NOT easy, but one thing that i didn't know that it will actually blow people away by their hidden evil and brutality.. -.-

let me break this down for you, for first year medic students, we have to sit for different exams for different subjects EVERY freaking week. like last week, i had 3 exams, and next week, i got 4 exams waiting to slaughter me. can die now.. *flies back to malaysia and jumps down from kl tower*

and the best part is, all the effing exams are really important exams, not the kind of test where we use to have during high school, these mother-eff-ers can actually shape your future. great! lets give a round of applause! -_____-

and yes, im currently preparing for my next bio-chem exam which is on monday. then wednesday having latin exam, thursday having anatomy exam (silent murderer), and last but not least, saturday is packed with general chemistry exam. fun right? eff u..

i am physically standing, but my semangat can barely stand straight. still trying REALLY hard to cope up with others, hope i can. *prays to God*

well, back to study. hope i don't get effed by exams.. chaozzz :)

Adam Lambert's

Time for Miracles

is on repeat mode,

in my laptop, my phone, my ears, my heart,

because i hope,

that my time,

will come soon.

-stillatstake-

complicated made simple :)

2009-11-19T14:03:00.001-08:00

things has been really well lately. first of all, BIRTHDAYS! we just celebrated 3 peepoos's bday during this 2 weeks, one my roomate, next my friend, then last my roommies's friend. today alone we bashed 2 bdays at once, of course not as fun as what we did back at home, but who cares. by the way, the cakes here are just oh-so-delicious! ohhemmgeee! xD and so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY shoutouts to ahkaw, dhanraj and maribelle!

over bdays now, back to reality. just finished 3 exams, and lucikly i passed! wheeeee~ :D although i didnt really passed with flying colours, but i passed, so YAHOO! especially recently, i just had my very first anatomy exam, and it was oral exam + mcq questions. i effed the mcq, but the oral rocks! anyway i PASSED! hahahaha :D

winter break is just around the corner, and some people over here are going back to malaysia. they damn syok lor.. damn envy laaa~ :( the only time i know that im going back is next year, july! goshhhh T.T

just so u know, the only time for me to cure my home-sickness and missing-u-bastards-back-at-home-ness is here, yups blogging helps. the whole point of me blogging is to let U guys out there know whats rolling in muh life now. so when i know that ur actually reading whats for u intentionally, that means the world to me. although i will not know that ur reading, as long im still alive, this blog will.

first of all, guys :

kc,ck,kk,ysj,cwh,tjh,kxj,shah

next, gals :

yv,ww,xn,xl,gxy,hjw,wsm,pc

i miss u guys EVERY moment im here

only now, i know

how important your existence is,

to my life

i heart y'll..

-stillatstake-

futured diary

2009-11-15T04:21:00.000-08:00

20th December 2012

Today, the mayan calender came to an end

so as everything else,

when the world came down upon us,

i remembered, holding your hands, real tight,

your breath against my face,

those forever-ly sweet lips,

your skin, your body, so warm

remember those times when those who called us 'an object'?

we were, and we are still

even till now, at this very last moment of everything,

before the world engulf us,

i just want you to know,

i love you..

-stillatstake-

usual routined

2009-11-10T09:21:00.000-08:00

as the days goes by, im kinda numb to the fact that i have to at least travel 10 miles and endless hours wasted on just transportations. if this were to happen to me back at home, i will definitely *nodding head really hard* complaint non-stop. but right now, what the hell...

officially, this is my second week here in my university, third weeks to be exact that i have called russia my second home. things hasnt been going as smooth as the perfect plan that WAS supposed to be planned out for us, but we are just teenagers, so eff it. actually there has a lot of stuff going on right now during my stay here, had really happy moments and some down moments too, what?! im human too, i have emotions..

so, classes were boring as usual, some were interesting though i have to say. like today, i had biology class, and we did this microscope experiment and speciments and stuff, and we have to draw what we see through the lens, sounds boring but it was actually the first time that i enjoyed class in russia. so yayyyy! :D

the one thing that i like about studying in my uni is, or can i say being a med student in a med school, there are some really, i mean REALLY important stuff that u have to obey, like first, everytime, no screw that.. EVERYTIME when we have classes or lessons or lectures, we HAVE to wear our lab coats, if not, classes at the corridor. personally, i dont mind having corridor sessions, but its freaking winter now and if we stand out at the cold for even just 5 mintues, my balls will be shaking out of control, literally. ohya, forgot to mention, the corridors are not heated, only classrooms are, so pick a choice, corridor or future doctors lookalikes? :)

i am so blessed to be an afs student, i mean serioooooouuuussssly! without those afs moments i dont think i can even survive here. sometimes, when im trying my ass off to communicate with the locals, one or two italians might occasionally slip out of my tougue and people will as usual give the 'what?' look. ooppss :p

well, i have anatomy exam this thursday and as usual, NOT PREPARED! HAHA :D!

anatomy : bones, muscles, human body, organs, tissues, dicks, cells, brain cell, nervous systems,

whatever, i just hope i wont become one of them after exam,

so chaozzzzz :)

sometimes,

i think,

what would i be,

if all these,

were back home...

-still at stake-

merah segi empat a.k.a red squareee! xD

2009-11-05T12:24:00.000-08:00

OMG, today was just another day that spells pure A.W.E.S.O.M.E.N.E.S.S! although the earlier part of the day wasnt really as awesome as i had my first anatomy class in my lifeeeeeee :D it was fresh, new and an experience. anyway it was definitely memorable, but im going to have class EVERY thursday in red squareeee! weeeeeeee :DDDD!!

being at one of the most iconic places in moscow definitely brought me back to afs italy, i felt like an exchange student all over again.. ahhhhhhh~ it was enjoying, how i wish my whole time here till now was just another exchange, just without the host family, free meals, comfy homes, and a hell lot of time spend on studies.. -________-

well thats all for now, i still have exam next week, anatomy AGAIN! -.- goshhhhhh, who ever invented this subject definitely is not a sociable person, because i have to spend like 3 whole fucking days to just memorise one whole human skull, lame right? haihhhhhhhh.. well nobody said that doing medic is an easy task..

thanks guys for today,

i really appreciate it,

and most importantly,

i got to relieve that again..

spasiva~ :)

-still at stake-

for being here..

2009-11-04T04:37:00.000-08:00

and so, russia has became my second home for the next 6 years, yes YEARS! having leisure time travelling in russia is already not easy, moreover about studying here.. well... i chose this path, embracing it well should be on my to-do list by now..

so far, as usual, its NOT a smooth sailing. ups and downs are definite musts in russia, according to the people who stays here. but lucikly its not for long before i got into the normal university student life that im in now. its hectic i have to say, no more enjoying and taking my own sweet time as i was like when im in high school. university is a totally different world, u go to classes or not the lecturers dont even give a shit, they will just move on, only some lecturers are kind enough to take attendance. and in my uni, travelling is an everyday torture, let me break this down for u, every single day, except for holidays and sundays, we have to travel for a minimum of 2 hours to our classes, with the help of 2 buses and 6 metros in total, to and from. for the first few days were seriously a pain-in-the-ass, but as time goes by, its just another day in university...

talking about russian people, one word : extraordinary. especially for some old russian folks, i think that they dun know how to actually communicate with foreigners, and since russia was a communist country, they think that every non-russian are bad people. during my first day in russia, no screw that, my first moment landing in russia, when i was still pushing my trolley full with my luggages strolling in the russian airport waiting for my transportation, i accidently, accidently, hit a russian old lady in the calf, because my trolley was REALLY heavy and difficult to control.. she actually turned around, looked at me for a moment, figured out that im non-russian, and started fucking me in russian, when she was done, she turned around and stormed off. i was like stoned, my shoes were as if they pasted to the floor with elephant glue, and i still remember thinking : '' so thats how they say welcome to russia in russian...' lol -___-

in the end, i have to depend on myself on everything. having a bunch good buddies here definitely helped me a lot, and i appreciate very very VERY much for their help for everything. without u guys, i will be like a duck finding his way out in a chicken coop..

university grows people up. its a pathway that leads everyone to adulthood, and i have to admit, stepping into adulthood SUCKS! although i enjoy maturity and what we CAN do now, sometimes, i really wish that there is a time macchine that can bring us back to the childish times,
where things are so much, SO MUCH more simpler..

well, there goes my life now, chaoz!

im here, and ur there,

i really miss u, for what i care,

at past, the time we meet is rare,

to me, its so so unfair,

sometimes, i feel like im gasping for air,

the scent of your hair,

the clothes that u wear,

its all still so vividly, in my mind,

i just want to let u know, that u were mine,

were, past, time,

all i wish, is that you are fine,

thank you, for you gave me, the time of my life..

-still at stake-

counting down the moments...

2009-10-21T21:25:00.001-07:00

again, with the come back of everything. this time, i really, REALLY REALLY hope it will be the last time that i have to do this. your's truly here is going to Russia to do medicine in a few days time.

my whole 2009 was a HUGE mess, or should i say, errmmmm... blessing in disguised maybe?it all started at last year december, went to another, and my last exchange to Italy. had one of my MOST EPICLY awesome time over there and came back at feb 2009. right after i reached malaysia, parents started talking to me abt my college, university, future, bla bla bla.... then it all happened..

college for 6 months, everything, EVERYTHING was planned out soooo smoothly and nicely that it was almost impossible (and it was). plan was : start college for 6 months, then take indonesian entrance exam, pass it and move on to uni in indon. WOAH! i still remember vividly, during that time, i whole head was fulll with omgs and wows...

ok plan started off really well, college was definitely memorable and FUN. took entrance exam, passed it and started celebrating. went to the uni in bandung, then all of a sudden, POOOF!

''i am sorry liyu zin eu, but u cant continue ur studies in Universitas Padjadjaran. its our policy to NOT allow colour blind students to study in here, im sorry...''

ok nevermind, i still have a back up. USU, in medan. so went back malaysia for a week, then off to medan. studied there for 1 month and half, another drama awaiting.. ''im sorry liyu zin eu, but u cant study in USU anymore due to ur colour blindness'' ''but i thought this university doesnt have the rules or policy saying that u dont accept students like me?'' '' for ur information, we JUST set the rules early this august after the 1st batch of first years came in, u came in at september, so i the rules are inforced now. im sorry...''

alright then, if He up there doesnt want me to study in indonesia, then fine. but please, PLEASE, do not let me go through this kind of drama again, i've had enough ups and downs, and its almost reaching my limits...

no more drama in russia, no more....

*keeping my fingers crossed*

i know that im strong

physically and mentally

but i just hope

JUST hope

that i have more strength

to take charge of my life

to control my own destiny

fucked up

2009-10-21T21:16:00.000-07:00

i dunno where to start, everything is sooo messed up in my mind now. but, one thing is for sure, i do miss home a lot, i mean seriously, i REEEEEAALLLYY miss home A LOT! i have never been soo damn homesick before.. ;( sometimes, i do feel like i dont belong here. everything here, everyone here, is not for me. i have been here for nearly a month now, and at some nights, i really feel like that i have made the wrong decision coming here. i even feel regret for being here, since im here, everything in me seems to fall apart. im actually trying hard to be the person that i used to be last time, my character, the liyu zin eu that he used to be, sometimes, i dun even recognise myself... and now, typing my heart out, in the middle of the night, how pathetic! i really need someone to talk to, someone that can relate to my situation, not just anybody... to all my dear peeps who are reading this (u know who u are), i just want u to know that i miss u guys EVERY SECOND. not just an ordinary 'i miss you', but sincerely from my heart, i really do miss u all. i missed everything u guys did together, i missed all the fun that i was supposed to be in. that feels like a stab in my stomach with a freaking knife. it hurts... badly.. and to that special someone who gave me the portrait of us, i love u so much for doing that and really appreciate what u did, thats like my medicine when im diagnosed with freaking-miss-you-guys syndrome. LOL ;D anyway, what the hell. im telling u, the only fucking reason im staying here is because of my dream, and if this shit place doesnt deliver that to me, im gonna freaking burn this university down man.. alright, thats everything that i need to say, feeling much better now... ;) p/s : i've never been blogging since like forever.. ;p -mission accomplised- [Lee YOu]

its time to tell the truth..

2009-09-06T10:19:00.000-07:00

to whom i know dearly who is reading this blog, i wanna say something that is from my heart, sorry that i lied to u, sorry that i didnt be as honest to u as i should be, im sorry...

i am now in Medan, no more in bandung and i changed my university. im studying in a different university, called Universitas Sumatera Utara, no more universitas padjadjaran that i said last time. it is not that i never been there, i stayed there for a week, and that was one of best and worst week of my life.

best week : the people there are the best people i have ever met. i thought to myself, i am so damn damn lucky to get this group of friends studying with me, spending time with me for the next 5 and half years. the place there is AWESOME! weather there is cooling, our hostels are newly raised, everything is just beyond steps, everyone is just beyond eye contact. although its situated at a small and remote place, but i dun mind it, AT ALL. i seriously dun mind. evrything was sooo perfect, so smooth, until...

worst week : they found out that im partial colour blinded. hence the chain reaction started... long long story and tonnes of drama, my parents coming down, pleading to the assistant head of Dentistry Faculty of UniPad bla bla bla... ''well, according to our policy, and the rules and regulations of this university, i am very sorry to say that we CANNOT accept your son to study in this university, i am really sorry.'' '' sir, i have done nothing wrong, its not that i choose to be colour blind, and its not i can control it...'' '' i am really sorry, but we really cant go against the rule just for one student.'' '' ok, ok i understand. thanks for your time sir.''

...finally... i broke down...

[ Li - U ]

it was suppose to be inside, not here..

2009-08-22T20:49:00.000-07:00

i have a lot of things running through my mind now, good things, bad things.. haihhh.. how i wish i can just throw all the stress away for just one time and live life to the very fullest. i think a lot of people in this world would wanna do that.

i know this space is for me to express my everyday feelings and emotions so that everything wont get clotted inside and one day, it will eventually explode and that would be the worst case scenario. but, sometimes, somethings and meant to be kept inside, in the deepest part...

everyone has some follies that do not wish to be known by others, it would be too embarassing. im definately not excluded, everyone should have their own secrets that only they know about it. shhhh~ =)

well back to reality, im now here, in my dorm, exploring my mind and typing out my heart. my parents are coming to visit me today, guess what, in BANDUNG! :D hehe.. as usual i dun really have any homesickness, just like usual, like all the previous 3 exchanges. well i had fun yesterday and later so i think its time for some self-exploring and some tranquil self-time...

off for some dream making... tatazzz

[LI - U]

Banduuuuuung...

2009-08-20T08:36:00.001-07:00

life here ROCKS! indonesia might be less cilvilised than malaysia, but the people here are wayyyyy more friendly and helpful. i think, throughout the whole jatinangor area, my campus is the cleanest in the area of the city -______-

omg did i mention about the fooooooood here. emmm emmm emmmmmm~ sooooo niceeeee~ omg~ and one more good reason for me to grow fat here, the foood is darn c.h.e.a.p! damn im going to grow sooooo phat.. T.T

yet still, i miss u sooo much. ur presence still lingers around me.. haunts me like the air around me.. send me dreams to make me miss u even more...

'the moment u left, i start to flood, with waves of memories, suffocating me, and at the same time, provides me the air that i breath. u make me my world my spin, without u, i dunno what will i be....'

[LI -U ]

this is it...

2009-08-18T10:30:00.000-07:00

this is it, all the hard work, all the time wasted, all the energy used, are all used for this single moment. and still, i cant believe that all of this is happening...

a year ago, i was a SPM student. as like all other normal form 5 students, we struglled for just one thing --> SPM. then time passed by, tick tock tick tock... a year has gone, everything is done. and hooray! how happy we are. yes, indeed, at that very moment, everything in this world seemed to be stopped, at that exciting moment. no more pressure, no more studies, no more anything, just kick back and relax, that was all in our mind...

only till now, i realised that my mum was right all the time. 'eu, enjoy ur school life, its the best time u can ever have, appreciate every bit of it.' this is what she always use to say. and i will always, always think :'' nah, not at all, school life is boring, damn lots to study, how good is it to be to work and be involved at the outside world...'' and the daydreaming kicks-off. how naive...

growing up is not easy, maturing is even tougher. there are more to think, more to analyse, and more to be wary of. although my pre-u (college) life is short, its valuable. i grew up there, my mind was hammered with tonnes of new things every single day like nails, and it stays, as a reminder...

now im here, spending my last few moments here, tomorrow off to indon for 5 and half years. thats pretty long huh. well, all i can say is,

make sure i dun make another girl pregnant. LOL :D

[LI -U ]

emo-tion

2009-08-05T21:45:00.000-07:00

please God, let the anchor down for time, its moving way tooooo fast.

13 days left for me, for me to enjoy life, for me to spend some quality time, for me to clear my mind and prepare myself for the next phase in my life, for me to redeem myself.....

i always thought to myself, its just like another exchange programme, but unfortunately, the truth its not. after stepping onto that plane, its gonna be a long long while when the next time im taking that another plane back. the thought of it just makes my stomach upside down.

how do u expect me to face all these with a smile?

[ Li-U ]

kopitiam diary

2009-07-29T00:40:00.001-07:00

well, here i am, blogging in a kopitiam... i thought this would only happen in dramas or movies, but its happening to me now. =)

stepping out of my house gives me a sence of open-ness. at least im not closed in my own 'prison' so to called. last time when i was in klm i used to blog in my condo, flipping through my memories like flashback video being played and translating everything into words. thats the usual way, but now, i wanna try something new....

*decription of my current surrounding* :

im in kemaman kopitiam, sitting on a round marble table with an empty V-Soy original bottle on my table. the table is very small, normally it fits 4 ppl per table, but now with my laptop and everything, the table is mine. =) the kopitiam is quite occupied, with ppl scattered all over. some businessman are talking business at one corner, some dear old ladies are having their reunion at one corner i guess, one guy is also like me, laptop-ing and making use of the wifi service provided here. one table of ppl ordered all the same drink which i dunno whats the name. and of course, not forgetting the workers, as usual busy like always, forever busy, walking around serving ppl, asking for orders, bringing menus to new customers etc. weather today was exceptionally hot, an ice cube would melt in seconds if its placed outside at the intense glare. smart customers has ordered coconut drink to quanch thirst some new customers just arrived, playing with their mobile gadgets.....

the scene always changes, ever-changing, it would take up a whole page to just only type what happened here in an hour, not to mention half a day or even one whole day.

everything here is simple, a simple shoplot with simple everyday people, but everyone is here with a purpose, and a motive. thats what makes it so interesting to watch, people come and leave, some kind ones leave a tip and leave with a smile, and some not so kind ones leave a trail of dirt and mess, expecting to be cleaned by others.

this is what life's all about, different people come and leave in our lifes, some leave a really beautiful smile behind that is worth remembering it for life, but some are really not worth mentioning about.

the scene of the kopitiam changed again....

_Lee_You_

back...

2009-07-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i last blogged. was really busy lately.
i have been up and down kl from kuantan for almost more than 10 times a month. even for this week only i have been to kl for 3 times. seriously sick of the 3 hour bus ride. but its worth it in the end. =)

after this period of time, only i realise what actually a teenager's real life should be. to have the perfect teenager life, fun is a must, and one more very important thing is to spend more time with your parents. i once had neglected that because i spent too much time with only friends, wayyyyy too much. and then some wake up call hit me, only i realise i neglected my parents. lucikly its not too late to undo my mistake, i went to places with them, spend some quality time with them. i didnt know that my parents can actually be so very happy to go 'hang gai' with me. i was touched to be honest, genuinely touched. i swear to God that i will NEVER neglect my parents anymore again in my life.

'daddy, mummy, i love you, with all my heart...'

-mission half accomplished-
= Lee You =

a period of time

2009-07-14T21:31:00.000-07:00

the period of time after some major exam is the MOST boring time! -_____-

its like u have absolutely nothing to do. besides sitting on the couch pressing non-stop on the remote or sitting 10 to 20 hours in front of this shit. haihhhhh. anyway luckily got some plans for the weekends, so i guess things are just back to normal. =)

i have always got soem problem with my colour vision. im a guy and im born with some colour defects, in other words, means i cant differentiate some shades of colours. BUT i can see the normal major colours, like red, yellow, blue, green bla bla bla...... and because of this stupid annoying 'handicap' so to call, i have some problems getting my driving license. which is REALLY a PAIN-IN-MY-ARSEEE! when i wanna get mine, they say i got colour blind and wont pass the driving test and u cant drive and bla bla bla with all those shit. and the worst thing of all, when i went to get my normal eye vision check up, those fucking annoying 'nurses' actually looked down at me and treated me like a handicap patient. how farking annoying that is?! im xorry for the foul language but the truth is they are seriously bitches. literally. so what if i do have some issues with my colour vision? im born with it. GOD gave this to me. its not that im complaining about it. please do respect people who are born with this defect. plus u guys are nurses! where is the caring heart? i guess all those fancy degrees and diplomas u get from all those nursing school are total bullshits.

ok over that issue. im going to indon so soon. next month 24th i have to be there as freshies. im going to university! and just last year i was having a crazy time at high school. thsi proves that time is not meant to be wasted. damn damn damn! i cant even enjoy life first. =(

anyway, nothing much to say about it. its fixed and all i cant do is follow the path to wherever it takes me. a paved path.

-mission accomplished-

= Lee You =

anything but satisfied

2009-07-10T11:49:00.000-07:00

well, i got what i wanted. my ekzams are finally over! wheee~ *with a sad tone and face* ;(

i just hate it. i cant help myself from withdrawing from it. its just too much for me.

when i was in japan, egypt, italy, the same shit happened to me. where everything has to come to an end, and we have to leave, depart into our seperate ways. somehow life HAS TO break our perfect life into pieces. well now ur have done it and not going to do it again. satisfied?

the one thing that i can never put down is friendship that has been deeply bonded. 6 months, or maybe 5 months for me, i have known them for 5 fucking months. this is the kind of friendship that u wanna keep. forever. and now, they are all going to russia. except for the sole soul (me) thats going to indon. i just dun want that feeling to return, i dun wanna relieve that kinda moments. to me, its kills me from within.

without them, i seriously wont know what i will become. smoker? college ponteng-er? drug addict? they are the pillars of my strength. without them, my soul would collapse. here, i wanna thank 2 really special people which really made me mesmerised and experience some feelings that are just pure. i wont mentioned their names out, but i just wanna tell u guys : u made my day, u made me wanna crave for u for more, u drived me crazy, u guys are pure assholes. BUT deep in my heart, both of u have occupied the 2 biggest space that is reserved for only special ppl. i want u guys know that i really appreciate u guys a lot for spicing up my life. sincerely thank u =)

' departing, its not about which route you are taking, its about turning back and see what u've lost and gained' - spontanoues

-mission accomplised-

= Lee You =

p/s : i miss u sooo damn much now. i wished that u were here now, right beside me, just looking into each other's eyes, slowly closing our eyes and fall into each others warmth and comfort. ;(

ekzam-ing

2009-07-07T07:44:00.000-07:00

well, second day of final exam. done with buo and physics! wheee~ :D at least the pain in the ass (physics) is gone now =) dun even mention abt the paper. hate it. never will like it. not even in 100 years. ;p

after the two exams, i finally plotted my own so-called 'graph' :

' the number of exam is directly proporational to the amount of pain in the head and the pain in my ARSEEEEE! ';) ishhh

anyway, i still got 3 more papers to go = chem, LAN and math. total NIGHTMARE!!

i have already planned what to do after all these shit. =) one word in conclusion : ALL HELL IS GOING TO LOSE BABEH!! wakakakaka :D!

-mission accompished-

= Lee You =

gone

2009-07-02T09:47:00.000-07:00

its true. time does flies. 6 months, gone, in a snap of a finger. *snapping fingers*

its like when i was in italy, 2 months just pass by like this. everything is happening too fast around me. time really do need to take a rest and stop, maybe once in a blue moon. try to live life to the fullest, to the max.

'life is like an ice-cream, enjoy it before it melts, and turn into droplets of regrets.'

vividly, i still remember my first day. the minute i stepped out of the lift, my 1st question :'' is this an office or college?'' and now, this place has been my 2nd school for half a year. although its small, although its not as glamorous as others, it has a heart, that is made by us. and its still pumping with pure adrenaline. non-stop flowing.

there are too many to say about. things that happened to me when i was here is too much to be typed as words. lets say that everything will be stored in the deepest part of my heart and will be constantly updated so that i wont lose it. i promise that i will become my asset.

all these has changed me. the me in the small town before was much different than the me in the big city. change for the better or the worst i shall keep it to myself and people who know me should be able to tell the difference. i gained so much, in terms of brain power, friendship, and even weight. oops~ ;P

tomorrow would be my last class, then exam, then everything would be over. for now. really hate all these crap. when we finally got used to the new company and new environment and new everything, life has to, i mean HAS TO take everything away from us! fuck it! damn annoying! i have experience this kinda feeling before, and trust me, its HORRIBLE!

i'll save the rest for last, next week, battle week! ciao!

-mission accomplished-

[ Lee You ]

ache from within. caged internally

2009-06-30T09:02:00.001-07:00

current status : moodless. stressed out. emotionless

reason : final exam next week.

reason behind reason : havent been studying enough. =(

plan before exam : continue study lor. what else?

plan after exam : ALL HELL GOING LOOSE! :D

this is the problem of the malaysian education system. everything is determined by one fucking exam. either make it or break it. if u fail it, ur gone, if u fail it, ur a failure/loser for life. damn fucking annoying!

really tried hard to get all the notes from paper to my brain, as conclusion, i am absolutely NOT build for rock hardcore sit-down study. epic phailure in that i have to admit! -___-

but for now, i really wish that i can be a nerd, at least until next week when its over. being a nerd is not a bad thing actually, at least nerds have the brains. ;p

'im trapped in myself, finding a way out from my soul, and only myself can find the light and courage to find my way out'

-mission accomplished-

[ Lee You ]

petaling street affair

2009-06-25T19:57:00.000-07:00

finally, all the pain-in-my-arse annoying entrance exams are HISTORY! now i still have one more exam to go ---> my foundation exam. due date : next two weeks. my status : havent officially studied anything yet. result : dead minced meat! X.X

just finished my two uni entrance exam for the past two days. for UGM & USU. it was tough as usual, but still manage to strruggle pass the paper. T.T yesterday was great, the exam almost makan-ed masa for the whole day. but lucikly medic ed provide us with mcD lunch. wheeee~ =)

right after exam, jack sent the putra gang home, and this might be the last time me seeing him. but he said he will go to UniPad with me, so fingers-crossed and hope for the best. =) later yesterday night, to kinda celebrate me getting into uni, went to petaling street to makan. had an Ultimate epic dinner of portugal ikan bakar and lala bakar! me belanja-ed ;p. i seriously miss the ikan bakar alot! me miss the spicy sambal + stingray + HUGE lalas = yummmmmssss~!! *drooling-muh-ass-off* LOL! frens cant tahan the sambal, ate till cried + sweating through the whole dinner. 0.O - no comment - hehe ;p

anyway, didnt manage to makan my upmost favourite ---> epic tau fu fah! sad T.T~

zme is going to study later. *doubting myself* I CAN AND I WILL!

{ breaking news } : the legendary Micheal Jackson has passed away peacefully in L.A hospital today. we all send our deepest condolence to the Jackson family and to all his fans out there for this incredibly great loss. R.I.P Micheal Jackson. we will all miss You dearly.

-mission accomplished-

[ Li-U ]

God me L.O.V.E u!

2009-06-23T01:13:00.000-07:00

OMG!! i just got the ULTIMATE BEST NEWS EVER! your's truly is accepted into University Padjadjaran in Indonesia!! i have never been so damn damn satisfied and excited before! its like a HUGE stone being lifted from my heart. now only i truly know the feeling of 'working hard for what you desire' feels like. woooosh~ =)

ok back to earth. errrrrrrrrrrrr OMG!! i cant even think straight now! ok relax~

last week friday, me went back to kuantan for the weekend for two reasons : to celebrate father's day and to celebrate my beloved macha's birthday. friday was again boring, i forgot what i did in the morning thought. hehe ;p but, in the evening, i attended an extra class by medic ed, your's truly's agent @ nirwana college from 6.30-8pm. the whole thing just spells B.O.R.I.N.G! before going there, acap dropped by to hang out, then we went there together. was late as usual. but i dun give a PHUCKING DAMN about it ;P! the class was eeeeeeeeee BORIIIIIING!! because i have to catch my bus at 9pm, i left the class earlier. hehehe =) before all these, i asked jaya to do me a favour to buy me my ticket back to kuantan. thanks dei by the way! so left the class, went dinner at p.street with her, chit-chatted quite a lot. didnt realised that time was actually zooming past us! when i looked at my watch, OMG! its already 8.30pm, and i still have 1/2 an hour to get from here to titiwangsa. just goggled up my food, technically. ciao-ed jaya and rushed my way to plaza rakyat lrt station. when i reached there i was basically sweating like a pig! panting heavily, waiting for the phucking lrt to arrive which took quite a long time. finally, cursing under breath, i boarded the lrt at 8.45pm. took a quick rest in the train, when it reached titiwangsa station, continue with the rushing and brisk walking. finally got into my bus, looked at my watch, 9.05pm, woooooh~~!! realived!

slept all the way, heard lots of snoring + grunting + baby crying + talking to the phone noices along the way. the bus ride was kinda fast, it only took me 3 hours and 15 minutes to reached kuantan which normally will makan 4 hours. mum was waiting for me at the station with a 100 plus in her hand. thanks mum =) love u! i came back without telling my dad because wanna give him a surprise like what i did to my mum during momma's day. so mum fetch me to golf club where my father is having his meeting. saw him, 'SURPRISE!!' a smile instantly flashed at dad's face. he keep on asking 'why u come back? never tell me pun' i said : 'its suppose to be a surprise dad!' -_______-

it was almost 1am in the morning, stomach grumbling = epic supper!! went to mcD at tc, ate an epic Big n' tasty set. first time eating supper with muh papa and mama at this time. =) went back to my lovely home, just chucked my luggage aside, changed my top, slleeeeeeeppp zzzz~

woke up quite early, this time my alarm clock was my mum! -__________- even more effective than my phone alarm. went breakfast then teman her to do some grocery shopping. then remembered that my jingbang was having futsal nearby, so decided to bash their futsal session ;p. went there, was happy to meet back my old machas. chit chat for a while, ajak-ed go watch drag me to hell @ 1pm. then went back home.

it has been AGES since i last set foot at megamall. not to mention having movie sessions there. nostalgic~ drag me to hell was an AWESOME MOVIE!! one of the best horror movie i've ever watched. its not ghostly scarry but very grossly horrifying. its actually damn funny to see how the girls react to the movie, watching with girls just makes the movie a whole lot better, it adds a pinch of hilarious-ness to the whole atmosphere. ;D did i mention the movie was UTTERLY GROOOSSS!

so finished the movie, went to have cendol and rojak. 4 cars in total. ohya one more thing, im the only one who havent get the driving lisence yet. EPIC EMBARASSMENT!! T.T everyone in my group can drive a freaking car already and i dunno a single shit about driving. ish! geram! all just because of my freaking annoying phucking minor colour blindness! haihhhh~ well anyway, in the bright side, i can always be the passenger and people have to drive me around. haha ;D! wooops~

after i came home, i decided to prepare dinner for father's day as tmr (sunday=father's day) night i have to be back at kl already. earlier on mum bought some lamb chops, so marinated it then started cooking a western dinner. menu of the night : lamb chop + button mushroom sauce + italian pasta ' yuuummm~!! it was an epic dinner, it has nothing to do about my cooking or anything, i just felt great about what i did for my dad. we drank some red wine and me and my mum gave a huge toast for my dad. overall, success! wheeeee~ =)

then later on that night, went to celebrate my macha's bday. it was a bday celebration cum gathering. so everyone turned up except for two. -_____- goggled in some beer, the girls was camwhoring all night long. we also did took quite alot of pictures. then when it was time, comes the cake and 'Happy bday to u~ happy birdday to u~.................' started the cream splashing and shouting and yelling. the whole kopitiam was literally filled with our noise. but dun care ;p! my fren shoved a hand full of cream straight to my face, free facial ;). LOL! i still can smell the oily smell of the cream eventhough after times of washing. overall, another success + memorable night! WHEEEEE~!! =) miss y'll much......

sunday = father's day! woke up quite early, again the alarm clock = muh lil' mama. love her lots by the way! gave muh dad a HUGE HUG! and wished him HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! then poof, back to sleep, zzzzzz~ LOL! i came back late yesterday la, duwan to have unnecessary eye bags. ;p then woke up for lunch, family lunch to wish all the fathers in my family. had lunch at the epic crab restaurant at beserah * sorry forgotten the name =p* had an epic lunch, my stomach blotted! uncle belanja-ed all of us, thanks =)

so came back to kl, start the usual routined life, miss my machas back here.

that's all from me now. chaozzz~ =)

-mission completed-

[ Lee You ]

anything but nothing.

2009-06-18T22:52:00.000-07:00

omg! yesterday was just plain epic awesome-ness!! its hard nowadays to have days like this to just spend the whole entire time with my beloved machas/jingbangs. :D

yesterday, thursday. nothing great about the boring routined morning. wake up, off my responsible yet annoying alarm, got ready then off to class. math again! arghhh! his class and lessons are technically suicidal! and also, math class is what we call suicidal class. X.X his class is the most boooooooriiiiing class ever! ultimate and no one can beat him! gave us some monthly test for the whole sem 2 syllabus. its was difficult which didnt surprise us much since he hates our class THAT much! *dun-give-a-phucking-damn-about-it* . finally, after dwelling with his for 4 looooong hours, class finished! wheeee~ ;D! had lunch with the usual gang, ajak-ed to cook at muh house, agreed then off back home, to sleeeeeep~ zzzzz

woke up at 5 smtg, wilson & nicholas was here. started making dinner. menu : 'epic french fries + cheese & egg sandwhich + cheese' everything i added some cheese to it. ;P it was actually eadable and tasted quite good. *high-fives*!! on the pervious day, some frens ajak-ed to watch 'drag me to hell', so after cleaning up the dirty dishes, bathed and off for my gang date. ;)

the movie was 10.45pm, so i also packed some clothes as the last ktm is 11.53pm i guess. went to kepong sentral, meet them up. i didnt know that they are going to do surprise bday celebration for my another fren. so hanged out there for a while, then with the 'happy bday to u~ happy bday to u~...............' ate dinner then off the cineplax. my fren drove, and his gen-2 was packed with 8 people! 3 in front and 5 at the back. not too bad actually, lucikly no one farted! ;D before that i also ajak-ed adam and his gang to join us, so two cars with 12 people in total went.

as usual, with the 'im faster! no IM faster!' race on the empty higway leading to mont kiara. went to the nearest cineplax at kepong sentral jusco, went inside. POOF! the last show just finished! major WTF!! it was such a put off! should have booked the tickets earlier. ishhhh! so nevermind, decided to go to the curve, cineleisure to catch up. again 2 with cars but this time the passengers changed cars.

sampai kat sana, the curve was almost closed, went to cineleisure. PPOOOF!! AGAIN! it phucking closed! haihhhhh~ major dissapoinment! T.T so NEVERMIND, since we are here ady, lazy to drive again all around just to hunt for the movie, decided to play bowling. we divided oursleves into 2 lanes. professional tournament pulak! so bowled, got 1 strike! epic moment! wheeee~ ;D!

finished with the bowling, was almost 1am. everyone still very wide awake. decided to play pool pulak. ;) most of us are pool virgins! LOL! nvmd, played along. sbb ade sponsor! haha! not bad not bad, very nice sport. starting to develop interest in it. hehe =) after everything, 2 drivers's stomach starting to grumble, so go makan. when on the way out, passed by a very loud club. so some of us decided to enter, started clubbing! us guys danced and checking out gals! woaah~! man now i know why people love clubbing so much! =P

so went back, went to mcD, makan-ed supper and straight back home. my bro got one deck of cards, so started playing blackjack. practically we slept at almost 3 something in the morning. i vowed to myself that im going to study when im back in putra, ended up blogging. grrr! isshhh! geram! self-disiplined needed!! guilty *bitting lips*

so back here, seriously need to study now. thats all from me now. ciaozzz~

-mission completed-
[ Lee You ]

something. somewhere. in my brain. needed to revealed.

2009-06-17T08:59:00.000-07:00

woah~ long time since i last updated this. lots of memory recapping needed....

recently i just finished my entrance exam on monday, its an exam required by indonesian university to maintain their quality by selecting students through this shitty exam. all medic students who are interested in going to indon uni must sit for this exam. this exam has 4 subs - chem, bio, phy and maths. 100 questions in one paper and we have to sit there and sit for this paper for a phucking 3 and half hours staright. STARIGHT! no rest in between. haihhhh~ anyway, for the sake of my future, i gotta dig back my f4/5 syllabus plus my current foundation stuffs. so menyusahkan. ishhh~ seriuosly a pain-in-my-arseee! 'my so called p.i.m.a' ;p

overall, paper was quite ok, so no regrets. *winks*

my parents got back to malaysia from their nth time honeymoon to china with my granparents last friday. wheeee~ :D got tonnes of souveniours for their lovely son, yours truly. wakakaka perasan pulak ishhh! LOL! ok ANYWAYYY, miss them hipppps! especially my mum, was talking to her non-stop about my current life and the funny things she encountered in china. can u believe that my parents and my grandparents actually managed to climb the epicly famous 'Huang Shan', english is yellow mountain, thats like 'the mountain' in china man! omg! i really salute my grandparents! fyi my grandpa is 81 years old and he is FIT! i wonder whether i can be as fit as him when i reach his age. sighhhhh~

its been a long long loooooooooong time since i last went on a family trip with them, the last time we went to germany for the river cruise trip when i was in form 2. then me going for 3 years of afs exchange. guilty~ *bitting lips* miss going vacation with my lil' mama and lil' papa. hehe ;)

they promised me that if i successfully get into indon uni, they will bring me to Bali for family trip. major WHEEEEE~!! bali spells massage, great food, great hotels, great people, and tonnes of hot gals. xD

the day before yesterday was keily's bday. so decided to give her an EPIC SURPRISE. we didnt manage to celebrate her bday during her actual day, so postponed one day later, which was yesterday. as usual, me is master planner *making no-big-deal face* LOL =D! anywayyy, bought her a oreo cheese, by the way, that cake is seriously damn freaking delicious!!! one of the epic best cake by secret recipe! *commision needed* haha! then called the whole class to act in the way so that the rahsia wont be bocor-ed. even our lovely ms.kho, chem lecturer joined in pun. =) =) adam bought whipped cream for some extra something something, ;p , so after chem class, brought bday gal to my condo, putra, then all hell went loose! i sprayed some cream on everyone's hand then each of them just shoved the cream to bday gal's face! she looked DISGUSTING! but to me of course tak cukup lah! so i left the the last cream for myself, hence sprayed one whole palm of cream and literally paste the whole thing to her face! wakakaka ;D! as usual, the aftermath, chasing each other with cream all over. and ended up being halau-ed by the phucking busy-body security guard. geram~!

after that, the whole jingbang shiftted to the swimming pool when everything just got better. me, jaye, adam + rhursten carried keily off the floor and just throw her into the pool. man she isHEAVY!! then, yours truly was next victim. it was sooo cold after getting out from the pool, whole body drenched and soaking wet. brrrrrrr~ then the party went on by throwing one by one into the pool. in other words, u guys were free dumb-bells for free exercise. ;P ;P

really dunno when can we do that again, thinking of the next last month spending in here just puts me off. sighhhhh~ all the time we spended together with u guys were too valuable to be forgotten, 6 words for y'll --> thank y'll & i love y'll. *tears streaming down*

- mission completed -

yours truly,

[ Lee You ]

2009-06-15T09:27:00.000-07:00

woah. long time since i last updated. need lots of memory recap-ing.....

sudden emo thought

2009-06-10T07:34:00.000-07:00

lots of things come and go throughout my whole life, but some left some really deep scars during their pathway along my life. my kindergarden life, primary, then secondary, eventually now. to me now, all these happened in like a snap of finger. *snap fingers* and yet is still miss them so darn much...

flashing back is like sitting on a one-way highway, with me in a fancy car. o.O and the passengers change constantly, from my baby sitter who took care of me when i was an infant, to my daycare carers, to my kindergarden teachers, to my primary & secondary teachers. and now, the passengers who are sitting beside me are my college lecturers and soon, they will be replaced by my university lecturers and more to come.

the scenery along the highway is my whole life. from one scene to another, changing infinitely. but since im on a one-way highway, i can only stick my head out of the car and look back what had just passed by my car, but just cant reverse the car back to relieve the moments.

although different people hop on and hop off my car, there are many permanent passengers who had yet to leave and will never leave. for example, my parents, my dad would be my driver till i get my license and when his vision becomes blur, my mum will be my constant companion, and most of all, my machas, my friends. they are all my pillars of strength, without them, i will be like a soul-less body. all of them would be on the ride till the road reaches an end. till the scenery outside slowly turns from light to fade. fogged. mistted. gone.

a lil' something called L.O.V.E & memories..

2009-06-09T00:47:00.000-07:00

when i was young, i always look at my parents, and ask my mum :'' ma, how u met daddy?'' and i will do the same to my dad. next year will be their 20th wedding anniversary. obviously, to me, my parents are the greatest parents in the world! not to mention that im the only child, but they are all what normal good parents should be. they are now at China having their nth time honeymoon and i miss them a lot. why am i here? how do i came here? all these questions constantly run through my head numerous times when i was young, but now, i know the answer. LOVE. without love, my parents wont be able to meet. without love, they will not be married. without love, i wont be here.

i grew up in a family that showered me with tonnes of love. my mother is my upmost best friend and my dad is my upmost wisest guy in the world! my mum brought me up in a more western way, in the sence of giving me lots of hugs and kisses and always with the goodnight kiss and 'i love u' / 'i love u too' before-bed speech. because of this influence, im used to giving other people hugs and physical touches, regardless of male or female. thats why when i was in primary school, i got myself into a shitload of truobles because of my too-passionate character. sigh~

but it was also a blessing in disguise, when i was in italy during my student exchange programme, i was alsolutely in my element and i had no trouble at all giving the italians double kisses in the cheeks and tonnes of hugs as italians are usually very passionate people when we greet. they are very loving people and are not shy at all to show love to each other. my host family are seriously wondeful! they are likethe most loving family besides my real own ones. awww i miss them soooo much~ mi manchi la mia famiglia! bacio grande per tutti~

- me and my host family -

thats all from me now. ciao~
[ Lee You ]

wasn't really a normal day.....

2009-06-09T00:04:00.000-07:00

monday, yesterday, was yet another normal day but with a pinch of difference. wake up in the morning, got ready, went to class, biology class with a heavy heart, knowing that im going to have a diagnostic test and i havent really studied enought yet. *biting lips*

sat beside acap, class started, lecturer opened a new chapter : Immunity. *sudden smile carved on my face* yayy~, one of my favourite chapters! whee~ ;D was paying concentration in class, jotting down preciuos notes and messing up my new notes with scribbles all over. then the usual long break, had breakfast, a really long one. when we got back to class ms.fatima was obviously furious and gave all the latecomers detention. shit~ i warned harish and the others to not come to class and they did. so all kena detained. haihhh.... in the end, because the whole class was too angellic, she decided to 'forgot' all about the detention and diagnostic test! wheeee~ double highfives!

after class, had lunch and went back condo with friends. met keily and adam on the way, had never saw them since god knows when, because of the o-levels exam. chit-chatted then went home. as i didnt got enough sleep the day before yesterday and the rest of the days of past weeks, i slept for the afternoon. had a really deep sleep because i didnt dream at all like i always do.

woke up at 5 something, got ready then head off to nirwana college @ petaling street. all medic ed students who are going to UniPad are required to attend this special tuition class at nirwana college. i just reached there on time. sat beside jack, again with the usual chit-chatting and obviuosly wasnt paying attention to the speaker in front. oops~ ;P

anyway, this ttn class is to test our personality and passion towards doing medic in indonesia. its like a facebook personality test, except that this is on paper and it consists of over 200++ questions. *jaw dropping* the question + answer sheet was a thick as a thin story book. and we did, from 7-8pm. then discussed the answers. there were 6 different tests, each one has a different genre and different marking requirement. its like if u got 15/40 correct, according to the proffesionals who design the test, and the range of normality is between 10-25, that means ur normal. i got 4 normals and 2 abnormals. -____-lll

after the whole jingbang, went to have dinner in p.street with jack. had this wonderful flour mee 'min fan gou' or 'ban min' in cantonese. yummmm~ taste so different from the normal ones i always tasted! for dessert we had my absolute favourite ------> tau fu fa!! mmmmmm~ *drools all over* belanja-ed jack since he's fetching me back.

reached home, went to 21st floor which is where jin hong, heng seong, jeremy malcolm staying. apparently wilson also went there to stay, using up uncessary spaces. hehe ;p just kidding la. ok anyway, watched a hong king police movie, utterly boringness!

went back, bath, studied. all of a sudden, jaye said he's farking hungry. ajak-ed me go makan at chow kit, got rejected because brushed my teeth and wore my retainers ady. in the end, ordered mc delivary which costs 21.90 bucks! all the from titiwangsa to putra, here. and my stomach was grumbling and mumering to me, those french fries were like talking to me :'' eat me...come eat me~ im sooooo tasty~ mmmmm~'' all hell went loose and i dug my hands into those freaking fries. and the usual aftermath with the regret-after-eating-fries bla bla bla....... T.T

brushed teeth again, re-wore retainers, tidied up bed, and sleep~ zzzzzzzzz

[ Lee You ]