it was suppose to be inside, not here..

i have a lot of things running through my mind now, good things, bad things.. haihhh.. how i wish i can just throw all the stress away for just one time and live life to the very fullest. i think a lot of people in this world would wanna do that.

i know this space is for me to express my everyday feelings and emotions so that everything wont get clotted inside and one day, it will eventually explode and that would be the worst case scenario. but, sometimes, somethings and meant to be kept inside, in the deepest part...

everyone has some follies that do not wish to be known by others, it would be too embarassing. im definately not excluded, everyone should have their own secrets that only they know about it. shhhh~ =)

well back to reality, im now here, in my dorm, exploring my mind and typing out my heart. my parents are coming to visit me today, guess what, in BANDUNG! :D hehe.. as usual i dun really have any homesickness, just like usual, like all the previous 3 exchanges. well i had fun yesterday and later so i think its time for some self-exploring and some tranquil self-time...

off for some dream making... tatazzz

[LI - U]

Banduuuuuung...

life here ROCKS! indonesia might be less cilvilised than malaysia, but the people here are wayyyyy more friendly and helpful. i think, throughout the whole jatinangor area, my campus is the cleanest in the area of the city -______-

omg did i mention about the fooooooood here. emmm emmm emmmmmm~ sooooo niceeeee~ omg~ and one more good reason for me to grow fat here, the foood is darn c.h.e.a.p! damn im going to grow sooooo phat.. T.T

yet still, i miss u sooo much. ur presence still lingers around me.. haunts me like the air around me.. send me dreams to make me miss u even more...

'the moment u left, i start to flood, with waves of memories, suffocating me, and at the same time, provides me the air that i breath. u make me my world my spin, without u, i dunno what will i be....'

[LI -U ]

this is it...

this is it, all the hard work, all the time wasted, all the energy used, are all used for this single moment. and still, i cant believe that all of this is happening...

a year ago, i was a SPM student. as like all other normal form 5 students, we struglled for just one thing --> SPM. then time passed by, tick tock tick tock... a year has gone, everything is done. and hooray! how happy we are. yes, indeed, at that very moment, everything in this world seemed to be stopped, at that exciting moment. no more pressure, no more studies, no more anything, just kick back and relax, that was all in our mind...

only till now, i realised that my mum was right all the time. 'eu, enjoy ur school life, its the best time u can ever have, appreciate every bit of it.' this is what she always use to say. and i will always, always think :'' nah, not at all, school life is boring, damn lots to study, how good is it to be to work and be involved at the outside world...'' and the daydreaming kicks-off. how naive...

growing up is not easy, maturing is even tougher. there are more to think, more to analyse, and more to be wary of. although my pre-u (college) life is short, its valuable. i grew up there, my mind was hammered with tonnes of new things every single day like nails, and it stays, as a reminder...

now im here, spending my last few moments here, tomorrow off to indon for 5 and half years. thats pretty long huh. well, all i can say is,

make sure i dun make another girl pregnant. LOL :D

[LI -U ]

emo-tion

please God, let the anchor down for time, its moving way tooooo fast.

13 days left for me, for me to enjoy life, for me to spend some quality time, for me to clear my mind and prepare myself for the next phase in my life, for me to redeem myself.....

i always thought to myself, its just like another exchange programme, but unfortunately, the truth its not. after stepping onto that plane, its gonna be a long long while when the next time im taking that another plane back. the thought of it just makes my stomach upside down.

how do u expect me to face all these with a smile?

[ Li-U ]

kopitiam diary

well, here i am, blogging in a kopitiam... i thought this would only happen in dramas or movies, but its happening to me now. =)

stepping out of my house gives me a sence of open-ness. at least im not closed in my own 'prison' so to called. last time when i was in klm i used to blog in my condo, flipping through my memories like flashback video being played and translating everything into words. thats the usual way, but now, i wanna try something new....

*decription of my current surrounding* :

im in kemaman kopitiam, sitting on a round marble table with an empty V-Soy original bottle on my table. the table is very small, normally it fits 4 ppl per table, but now with my laptop and everything, the table is mine. =) the kopitiam is quite occupied, with ppl scattered all over. some businessman are talking business at one corner, some dear old ladies are having their reunion at one corner i guess, one guy is also like me, laptop-ing and making use of the wifi service provided here. one table of ppl ordered all the same drink which i dunno whats the name. and of course, not forgetting the workers, as usual busy like always, forever busy, walking around serving ppl, asking for orders, bringing menus to new customers etc. weather today was exceptionally hot, an ice cube would melt in seconds if its placed outside at the intense glare. smart customers has ordered coconut drink to quanch thirst some new customers just arrived, playing with their mobile gadgets.....

the scene always changes, ever-changing, it would take up a whole page to just only type what happened here in an hour, not to mention half a day or even one whole day.

everything here is simple, a simple shoplot with simple everyday people, but everyone is here with a purpose, and a motive. thats what makes it so interesting to watch, people come and leave, some kind ones leave a tip and leave with a smile, and some not so kind ones leave a trail of dirt and mess, expecting to be cleaned by others.

this is what life's all about, different people come and leave in our lifes, some leave a really beautiful smile behind that is worth remembering it for life, but some are really not worth mentioning about.

the scene of the kopitiam changed again....

_Lee_You_

back...

its been a while since i last blogged. was really busy lately.
i have been up and down kl from kuantan for almost more than 10 times a month. even for this week only i have been to kl for 3 times. seriously sick of the 3 hour bus ride. but its worth it in the end. =)

after this period of time, only i realise what actually a teenager's real life should be. to have the perfect teenager life, fun is a must, and one more very important thing is to spend more time with your parents. i once had neglected that because i spent too much time with only friends, wayyyyy too much. and then some wake up call hit me, only i realise i neglected my parents. lucikly its not too late to undo my mistake, i went to places with them, spend some quality time with them. i didnt know that my parents can actually be so very happy to go 'hang gai' with me. i was touched to be honest, genuinely touched. i swear to God that i will NEVER neglect my parents anymore again in my life.

'daddy, mummy, i love you, with all my heart...'

-mission half accomplished-
= Lee You =

a period of time

the period of time after some major exam is the MOST boring time! -_____-

its like u have absolutely nothing to do. besides sitting on the couch pressing non-stop on the remote or sitting 10 to 20 hours in front of this shit. haihhhhh. anyway luckily got some plans for the weekends, so i guess things are just back to normal. =)

i have always got soem problem with my colour vision. im a guy and im born with some colour defects, in other words, means i cant differentiate some shades of colours. BUT i can see the normal major colours, like red, yellow, blue, green bla bla bla...... and because of this stupid annoying 'handicap' so to call, i have some problems getting my driving license. which is REALLY a PAIN-IN-MY-ARSEEE! when i wanna get mine, they say i got colour blind and wont pass the driving test and u cant drive and bla bla bla with all those shit. and the worst thing of all, when i went to get my normal eye vision check up, those fucking annoying 'nurses' actually looked down at me and treated me like a handicap patient. how farking annoying that is?! im xorry for the foul language but the truth is they are seriously bitches. literally. so what if i do have some issues with my colour vision? im born with it. GOD gave this to me. its not that im complaining about it. please do respect people who are born with this defect. plus u guys are nurses! where is the caring heart? i guess all those fancy degrees and diplomas u get from all those nursing school are total bullshits.

ok over that issue. im going to indon so soon. next month 24th i have to be there as freshies. im going to university! and just last year i was having a crazy time at high school. thsi proves that time is not meant to be wasted. damn damn damn! i cant even enjoy life first. =(

anyway, nothing much to say about it. its fixed and all i cant do is follow the path to wherever it takes me. a paved path.

-mission accomplished-

= Lee You =