counting down the moments...

again, with the come back of everything. this time, i really, REALLY REALLY hope it will be the last time that i have to do this. your's truly here is going to Russia to do medicine in a few days time.

my whole 2009 was a HUGE mess, or should i say, errmmmm... blessing in disguised maybe?it all started at last year december, went to another, and my last exchange to Italy. had one of my MOST EPICLY awesome time over there and came back at feb 2009. right after i reached malaysia, parents started talking to me abt my college, university, future, bla bla bla.... then it all happened..

college for 6 months, everything, EVERYTHING was planned out soooo smoothly and nicely that it was almost impossible (and it was). plan was : start college for 6 months, then take indonesian entrance exam, pass it and move on to uni in indon. WOAH! i still remember vividly, during that time, i whole head was fulll with omgs and wows...

ok plan started off really well, college was definitely memorable and FUN. took entrance exam, passed it and started celebrating. went to the uni in bandung, then all of a sudden, POOOF!

''i am sorry liyu zin eu, but u cant continue ur studies in Universitas Padjadjaran. its our policy to NOT allow colour blind students to study in here, im sorry...''

ok nevermind, i still have a back up. USU, in medan. so went back malaysia for a week, then off to medan. studied there for 1 month and half, another drama awaiting.. ''im sorry liyu zin eu, but u cant study in USU anymore due to ur colour blindness'' ''but i thought this university doesnt have the rules or policy saying that u dont accept students like me?'' '' for ur information, we JUST set the rules early this august after the 1st batch of first years came in, u came in at september, so i the rules are inforced now. im sorry...''

alright then, if He up there doesnt want me to study in indonesia, then fine. but please, PLEASE, do not let me go through this kind of drama again, i've had enough ups and downs, and its almost reaching my limits...

no more drama in russia, no more....

*keeping my fingers crossed*

i know that im strong

physically and mentally

but i just hope

JUST hope

that i have more strength

to take charge of my life

to control my own destiny