dedicated to the Man

when i havent even exist,

you did the greatest thing ever,

you met mummy.

when i was inside mummy,

you videotaped how i was behaving,

one word : lazy

and everyday, you anticipate for even my slightest movements.

when i was a baby,

you did everything,

from changing the diapers, to bathing me, to washing my poo poo..

and mummy would stand there and realise, what a great husband i just married.

when i was a toddler,

you and mummy would take turns sending me to kindergarten,

and i everytime, i would stand and the entrance, eyes red and filled with tears,

and at the end of the day, i would come back with a huge smile on my face.

when i was a kid,

creating problems would be my no.1 to-do-list,

and i was everyone's pain-in-the-ass,

but when no one was there for me,

you were.

when i was an adolescent,

everything went wrong for me,

endless troubles fall upon me,

i was disturbed,

and you came, and cleared everything for me.

when i was a teenager,

raging hormones haunted me,

constant argues slowly drifted us apart,

as usual, you'll keep all the arguments at the back of your head,

and at the end of the day, everything is back to normal.

he fell,

he tumbled,

he lost,

he crushed,

and he told me,

he warned me,

so that the mistakes wont be repeated.

and now,

everything is still normal, except for one thing,

i realized, what a great dad i have..

'Any man can be a father. It takes someone special to be a dad.'

-- Author Unknown

Happy Birthday Daddy!

from Russia, with lots of love,

-stillatstake-

at least i know,

i have a shoulder to cry on,

a special someone to fall back on,

and most importantly,

i have the first and only man,

for me to love..

If..

If..

we were more closer,

If..

we were more mature,

If..

we were more caring,

If..

we were more understanding,

If..

i just have the balls,

to say I love you.. je ta'dore, ti amo, te amore..

If..

-stillatstake-

spero che lei ha capito come si parlato a qui,

spero tua capito miei sentimenti verso lei..

tutto voglio dire e..

l'amo..

the 22nd

oh well, ignore the previous emo post. lets talk about something that is funieeeeeee! :D

and so, your's truly turned 19 a few days ago. not good, not good at all. that literally means, bye bye teenage crazy obnoxiousness and hello pain-in-the-ass adulthood. gosh -.-

anyways, i did had a wonderful awesome time over here with a bunch of loves to celebrate my 19th with me.

first part..

we celebrated a double bday, the one in white, his bday was on the 21st.

they cooked dinner for me, and i have to say, russian cakes, even though you bought it at any random tom-dick-and-harry store, it tastes friggin' AWESOME! omg, that ice cream cake was finger lickin' yummmmmy! :D

then, received a call from my rommie, went straight downstairs, this is what happened..

second part..

the second cake *before*

*after* -______-

roommie #1 (in blue)

roomie #2

# heart the bday present :)

after the mess and chaos, we played truth and dare, it was a nightmare in hell. unfortunately Lady Luck wasnt on my side that day and i got dared like a hundred times. -__________-

of the many nightmares was licking the tongue of a same sex, giving a hicki to another person, french kissing bla bla bla.. and no pictures was allowed so im sorry :) what happened in moscow stays in moscow. ;p

more pics will be in facebook soon :)

i realised,

that this is the 3rd year i am not able to celebrate my bday with my family, 3 years. ohmygawd..

this will be the last year, i promise my mum and dad. *fingers crossed*

# skype works like a charm i swear

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

i did enjoyed myself

its all ever wanted for my birthday..

thank you..

winter break dilemma

and so, im bored to the max now. congrates on your stupid idea of staying back here instead of actually listening to your parents for once to go back home, so that they dont have to miss you so much zineu.

but, i have to say, staying back isnt all bad, luckily i got him, her, she, he, them with me to waste this whole winter break with me.

well, epic phailure in the attempt to shop till i drop because your's truly here has his mum's heavenly thrifty genes -______________________-''''

yes mum i know you're looking at this and cursing under your breathe.. LOL :D

well so far, i've been..

camwhoring and shopping..

eating out.. korean to be specific *drools* :)

visiting places..

i know the pictures are a lil' too little, but i promise i will take more and post more next time.

i always tend to forgot my beloved camera when i go out, plus its winter, who wants to step out of their house? pfft..

dal Rusia, con amore

-stillatstake-

with all of you here,

i thank God for it..

aching heart

ohhh, how i wish you were here..

how i wish i can hold you everytime when its snowing,

how i wish i can wake you up in the morning, and remind you that there's class today,

how i wish, how i wish..

oh well, life aint fair, dreaming aint gonna bring you any benefit nor satisfaction, so lets move on..

and so, what happened lately huh? hmmmmmm ohya! i passed my bioorganic chemistry finals already, thats worth a celebration man! wheeeeeeeeee! :D finally one pain in my ass is done, and done FOREVER, because i dont have to see that shit anymore EVER! epic LOL! :) :)

BUT, some other subjects will replace bioorg, like histology? omg, thats like the evil twin of anatomy.. *shake heads*

as for today, just came back from this awesome Korean restaurant down town and had some gorgeous korean food, after such a looooooooooooooooooooong time not being able to eat a proper asian lunch. we had bbq meat and korean mixed rice? i guess.. it was good. one word, satisfied *smiless* :)

seriously, i really have to cut down my spendings into half, i have been spending sooooo much this month and i feel so guilty, sorry mum.. :(

and tmr, shopping again! weeeeeeeeee! :)

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

you're crazy

you're an asshole

you're dumb

you're stupid

but i love you..

new year. bullshit

dear blog,

and so, 2010 arrives. when i was younger, i used to think new year is something that's really worth celebrating about. it shows that us, mankind @ humans has lived on this world for another year. well, it is a day worth celebrating, but after all, everything else turns back to normal. its not that im splashing cold water or what so ever, this is only to my opinion, to me, this 2010 isn't anything special but just another time passing by, and its passing really fast.

for me, new year means :

- getting older

- making new year resolutions that will never be succeeded, maybe once in a blue moon

- more stress in this effing medical school

- entering another phase in life, which sucks big time because maturing is NEVER my thing

- and more stress..

sigh...

eff the emo talk, moving on..

when i come to think of it, this is the 4th year that i never spend new year or christmas at home. 4 years, since i was 15. ohmygesus. i owe my family soooooooo much man, not to mention the amount of pressure i placed on my mum and dad for letting them worrying about me when im overseas. i promise, next year, i hope, no no screw that, i WILL celebrate christmas and new year with them, please Jesus, help me out on this..

2010 wasn't a pleasant start for me to be honest. things was not going as smooth as i thought. but, it was ok, at least it was memorable. all i can say is, hell i wish that i can move every single one of you from Malaysia to Russia..

i know you're reading this mum, i can see that smile on your face, dad you too :)

from Russia, with love

-stillatstake-

i miss you,

and when i say it,

i really do mean,

i miss you..