a b c d e x a m s i e f f i n g h a t e y o u x y z

exam exam exam exam exam exam exam fuck you! please eff off will ya?

gosh, why do they have to torture us in the most brutal way ever? i know the fact that doing medic is definitely NOT easy, but one thing that i didn't know that it will actually blow people away by their hidden evil and brutality.. -.-

let me break this down for you, for first year medic students, we have to sit for different exams for different subjects EVERY freaking week. like last week, i had 3 exams, and next week, i got 4 exams waiting to slaughter me. can die now.. *flies back to malaysia and jumps down from kl tower*

and the best part is, all the effing exams are really important exams, not the kind of test where we use to have during high school, these mother-eff-ers can actually shape your future. great! lets give a round of applause! -_____-

and yes, im currently preparing for my next bio-chem exam which is on monday. then wednesday having latin exam, thursday having anatomy exam (silent murderer), and last but not least, saturday is packed with general chemistry exam. fun right? eff u..

i am physically standing, but my semangat can barely stand straight. still trying REALLY hard to cope up with others, hope i can. *prays to God*

well, back to study. hope i don't get effed by exams.. chaozzz :)

Adam Lambert's

Time for Miracles

is on repeat mode,

in my laptop, my phone, my ears, my heart,

because i hope,

that my time,

will come soon.

-stillatstake-

complicated made simple :)

things has been really well lately. first of all, BIRTHDAYS! we just celebrated 3 peepoos's bday during this 2 weeks, one my roomate, next my friend, then last my roommies's friend. today alone we bashed 2 bdays at once, of course not as fun as what we did back at home, but who cares. by the way, the cakes here are just oh-so-delicious! ohhemmgeee! xD and so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY shoutouts to ahkaw, dhanraj and maribelle!

over bdays now, back to reality. just finished 3 exams, and lucikly i passed! wheeeee~ :D although i didnt really passed with flying colours, but i passed, so YAHOO! especially recently, i just had my very first anatomy exam, and it was oral exam + mcq questions. i effed the mcq, but the oral rocks! anyway i PASSED! hahahaha :D

winter break is just around the corner, and some people over here are going back to malaysia. they damn syok lor.. damn envy laaa~ :( the only time i know that im going back is next year, july! goshhhh T.T

just so u know, the only time for me to cure my home-sickness and missing-u-bastards-back-at-home-ness is here, yups blogging helps. the whole point of me blogging is to let U guys out there know whats rolling in muh life now. so when i know that ur actually reading whats for u intentionally, that means the world to me. although i will not know that ur reading, as long im still alive, this blog will.

first of all, guys :

kc,ck,kk,ysj,cwh,tjh,kxj,shah

next, gals :

yv,ww,xn,xl,gxy,hjw,wsm,pc

i miss u guys EVERY moment im here

only now, i know

how important your existence is,

to my life

i heart y'll..

-stillatstake-

futured diary

20th December 2012

Today, the mayan calender came to an end

so as everything else,

when the world came down upon us,

i remembered, holding your hands, real tight,

your breath against my face,

those forever-ly sweet lips,

your skin, your body, so warm

remember those times when those who called us 'an object'?

we were, and we are still

even till now, at this very last moment of everything,

before the world engulf us,

i just want you to know,

i love you..

-stillatstake-

usual routined

as the days goes by, im kinda numb to the fact that i have to at least travel 10 miles and endless hours wasted on just transportations. if this were to happen to me back at home, i will definitely *nodding head really hard* complaint non-stop. but right now, what the hell...

officially, this is my second week here in my university, third weeks to be exact that i have called russia my second home. things hasnt been going as smooth as the perfect plan that WAS supposed to be planned out for us, but we are just teenagers, so eff it. actually there has a lot of stuff going on right now during my stay here, had really happy moments and some down moments too, what?! im human too, i have emotions..

so, classes were boring as usual, some were interesting though i have to say. like today, i had biology class, and we did this microscope experiment and speciments and stuff, and we have to draw what we see through the lens, sounds boring but it was actually the first time that i enjoyed class in russia. so yayyyy! :D

the one thing that i like about studying in my uni is, or can i say being a med student in a med school, there are some really, i mean REALLY important stuff that u have to obey, like first, everytime, no screw that.. EVERYTIME when we have classes or lessons or lectures, we HAVE to wear our lab coats, if not, classes at the corridor. personally, i dont mind having corridor sessions, but its freaking winter now and if we stand out at the cold for even just 5 mintues, my balls will be shaking out of control, literally. ohya, forgot to mention, the corridors are not heated, only classrooms are, so pick a choice, corridor or future doctors lookalikes? :)

i am so blessed to be an afs student, i mean serioooooouuuussssly! without those afs moments i dont think i can even survive here. sometimes, when im trying my ass off to communicate with the locals, one or two italians might occasionally slip out of my tougue and people will as usual give the 'what?' look. ooppss :p

well, i have anatomy exam this thursday and as usual, NOT PREPARED! HAHA :D!

anatomy : bones, muscles, human body, organs, tissues, dicks, cells, brain cell, nervous systems,

whatever, i just hope i wont become one of them after exam,

so chaozzzzz :)

sometimes,

i think,

what would i be,

if all these,

were back home...

-still at stake-

merah segi empat a.k.a red squareee! xD

OMG, today was just another day that spells pure A.W.E.S.O.M.E.N.E.S.S! although the earlier part of the day wasnt really as awesome as i had my first anatomy class in my lifeeeeeee :D it was fresh, new and an experience. anyway it was definitely memorable, but im going to have class EVERY thursday in red squareeee! weeeeeeee :DDDD!!

being at one of the most iconic places in moscow definitely brought me back to afs italy, i felt like an exchange student all over again.. ahhhhhhh~ it was enjoying, how i wish my whole time here till now was just another exchange, just without the host family, free meals, comfy homes, and a hell lot of time spend on studies.. -________-

well thats all for now, i still have exam next week, anatomy AGAIN! -.- goshhhhhh, who ever invented this subject definitely is not a sociable person, because i have to spend like 3 whole fucking days to just memorise one whole human skull, lame right? haihhhhhhhh.. well nobody said that doing medic is an easy task..

thanks guys for today,

i really appreciate it,

and most importantly,

i got to relieve that again..

spasiva~ :)

-still at stake-

for being here..

and so, russia has became my second home for the next 6 years, yes YEARS! having leisure time travelling in russia is already not easy, moreover about studying here.. well... i chose this path, embracing it well should be on my to-do list by now..

so far, as usual, its NOT a smooth sailing. ups and downs are definite musts in russia, according to the people who stays here. but lucikly its not for long before i got into the normal university student life that im in now. its hectic i have to say, no more enjoying and taking my own sweet time as i was like when im in high school. university is a totally different world, u go to classes or not the lecturers dont even give a shit, they will just move on, only some lecturers are kind enough to take attendance. and in my uni, travelling is an everyday torture, let me break this down for u, every single day, except for holidays and sundays, we have to travel for a minimum of 2 hours to our classes, with the help of 2 buses and 6 metros in total, to and from. for the first few days were seriously a pain-in-the-ass, but as time goes by, its just another day in university...

talking about russian people, one word : extraordinary. especially for some old russian folks, i think that they dun know how to actually communicate with foreigners, and since russia was a communist country, they think that every non-russian are bad people. during my first day in russia, no screw that, my first moment landing in russia, when i was still pushing my trolley full with my luggages strolling in the russian airport waiting for my transportation, i accidently, accidently, hit a russian old lady in the calf, because my trolley was REALLY heavy and difficult to control.. she actually turned around, looked at me for a moment, figured out that im non-russian, and started fucking me in russian, when she was done, she turned around and stormed off. i was like stoned, my shoes were as if they pasted to the floor with elephant glue, and i still remember thinking : '' so thats how they say welcome to russia in russian...' lol -___-

in the end, i have to depend on myself on everything. having a bunch good buddies here definitely helped me a lot, and i appreciate very very VERY much for their help for everything. without u guys, i will be like a duck finding his way out in a chicken coop..

university grows people up. its a pathway that leads everyone to adulthood, and i have to admit, stepping into adulthood SUCKS! although i enjoy maturity and what we CAN do now, sometimes, i really wish that there is a time macchine that can bring us back to the childish times,
where things are so much, SO MUCH more simpler..

well, there goes my life now, chaoz!

im here, and ur there,

i really miss u, for what i care,

at past, the time we meet is rare,

to me, its so so unfair,

sometimes, i feel like im gasping for air,

the scent of your hair,

the clothes that u wear,

its all still so vividly, in my mind,

i just want to let u know, that u were mine,

were, past, time,

all i wish, is that you are fine,

thank you, for you gave me, the time of my life..

-still at stake-